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[Jenne]

kazoobeffy: get yer butt back
JenneUCSC: just got to work, gettn a few things done then i'll be back
kazoobeffy: get yer butt back
JenneUCSC: butt back
kazoobeffy: yay :-)
JenneUCSC: whats up mah dear?
JenneUCSC: has he told you yet?
JenneUCSC: i havnt talked to anyone in forever it feels like
JenneUCSC: i had a flash of conscience last night :-(
kazoobeffy: no .. he has told me nothing
kazoobeffy: tell me about your flash of conscience
JenneUCSC: he has not told you?
JenneUCSC: you are fucken kidding me
kazoobeffy: no
JenneUCSC: and you've talked to him?
kazoobeffy: nope
kazoobeffy: yes
kazoobeffy: many times
kazoobeffy: and tried to open the door for him TO tell me
JenneUCSC: have you talked any more to rob or karen bout it?
kazoobeffy: no .. I haven't seen either of them online
JenneUCSC: well i had a flash of conscience cause i felt evil bout voting him off before f4. i just didnt know if i could do it
JenneUCSC: but that really does bother me
kazoobeffy: and, of course, I know exactly what you mean about voting him out
JenneUCSC: :-(
kazoobeffy: <sigh>
kazoobeffy: if he doesn't tell me soon .. I'm gonna go off on him
JenneUCSC: i havnt even had a chance to tell taylor bout it
kazoobeffy: I haven't said a word to Taylor yet
JenneUCSC: i havnt gotten to talk to tay/kyle/ellie since monday night
kazoobeffy: I can't believe that after we all decided to not say anything until after the game .. that he goes and does that
JenneUCSC: no one seems to be onlin e ever
kazoobeffy: and does it without telling us!
JenneUCSC: we did decide that right? didnt we have a group chat where we all agreed that would be best?
JenneUCSC: i know you and tay were there, i dont remember if mikey was in that convo or not
kazoobeffy: mikey was there
JenneUCSC: ugh!
JenneUCSC: you know i was fine iwth him telling him he is tenzil not lucas or whatever. and even that he had played a game iwth me before
JenneUCSC: BUT when he told her that he didnt tell her that i knew lucas was tenzil
JenneUCSC: just that he knew me
JenneUCSC: it was JUST him parts
kazoobeffy: and telling that I'm beth?
kazoobeffy: and that we were in socotra
JenneUCSC: he hadnt told her that before
JenneUCSC: he just told her the other stuff
JenneUCSC: NOW is when he spilled the beans on EV ERYthing
kazoobeffy: and I can't believe he is so naive as to think she isn't telling the jury
JenneUCSC: maybe she wont. if she does in fact respect the rules of this game
JenneUCSC: cause it will ruin the integrity of this game if she does
JenneUCSC: i'm not convinced she wont, and im not convinced she will
JenneUCSC: but i think karen and /or rob need to make sure she knows the severity of it
JenneUCSC: as in, if a jury member is told, they should be thrown off the jury
kazoobeffy: I agree
kazoobeffy: but Jamie has already proved she doesn't respect the integrity of the game
kazoobeffy: by talking "game" with Mikey
JenneUCSC: what irked me was that all HE cared about was she *likes* him and she isnt mad at *him*
JenneUCSC: it was just all about HIM
JenneUCSC: he didnt even consider the fact that is had to do with more than just HIM
JenneUCSC: effected us ALL
JenneUCSC: and he should have respected us and our value in what he was spilling
kazoobeffy: exactly
JenneUCSC: it felt like he was proud ofhimself when he told me
JenneUCSC: further it irks me that i told him he needed to tell you guys, he said he would, and more than 24hrs have gone by and nada
JenneUCSC: i feel evil for wanting him gone. i really do.
JenneUCSC: i actually had thoughts last night of just voting myself out of here rather than make that choice. i just felt wretched. but i dont quite feel that strongly anymore
kazoobeffy: yeah .. I relate .. I keep going back and forth
kazoobeffy: and the more he talks to me and doesn't tell me
kazoobeffy: the madder I get again
JenneUCSC: :-( *hugs* this is not how it was supposed to go!
kazoobeffy: I just don't get what he's doing

JenneUCSC: is holidays over or something?
JenneUCSC: feels like everyone stopped playing the game!
JenneUCSC: lol
kazoobeffy: lol
kazoobeffy: what's weird
kazoobeffy: is Mikey is almost always on now
kazoobeffy: and nothing
kazoobeffy: I talked to him earlier
kazoobeffy: I'm wondering if Rob or karen has said something to him?
JenneUCSC: oh ick!
kazoobeffy: well .. Rob definitely wasn't happy yesterday when he found out mikey was talking with jamie
kazoobeffy: and not only talking with her .. but talking game with her
JenneUCSC: eeek!
JenneUCSC: :-(
JenneUCSC: i got mikey in trouble
JenneUCSC: and i want to vote him out
JenneUCSC: i am a crappy friend
JenneUCSC:
kazoobeffy: puts me in the same boat
kazoobeffy: :-(
JenneUCSC: *hugs*
JenneUCSC: *sighs*
JenneUCSC: why do they call this a game?
JenneUCSC: arent games fun?
JenneUCSC: *pouts*
kazoobeffy: I know
kazoobeffy: *pouts with Jenne*
kazoobeffy: I want fun again
kazoobeffy: I want Mikey to come clean with me
kazoobeffy: he's depending on the fact that he's IN the f4
kazoobeffy: and honestly
kazoobeffy: if he can't be honest with me
kazoobeffy: makes me not feel so good about him
kazoobeffy: and makes me feel like I can't trust him with any information about me
JenneUCSC: awwww
JenneUCSC: i just wish he knew how much this effects us
kazoobeffy: yeah
JenneUCSC: cause i know he wouldnt want you to feel like that
kazoobeffy: its just
kazoobeffy: how do you trust someone with any kind of information when he thinks he can tell it to anyone at the drop of a hat
kazoobeffy: and not even tell me that he's told that someone
JenneUCSC: but its game stuff. you arent talking personal right?
kazoobeffy: *nods*
JenneUCSC: mikey plays this game for himself
JenneUCSC: pure and simple
kazoobeffy: but if he's willing to tell something like that re: game and just be concerned about Jamie liking HIM
JenneUCSC: i honestly dont think he is thinking
JenneUCSC: i think he was on the phone with her, all excited
JenneUCSC: and just blabbed
kazoobeffy: well .. one of his brains is thinking :-P
JenneUCSC: i know it wasnt malicious, it was careless
JenneUCSC: and inconsiderate
kazoobeffy: what are we gonna do about the vote?
kazoobeffy: it's either lucas or kyle
JenneUCSC: neither of which will be easy
JenneUCSC: and the choice is essentially ours
kazoobeffy: *grin* which is only appropriate since we've decided ther est
JenneUCSC: well if i had just met mikey in this game and formed an alliance with him, no question i would vote him out tonight and break that alliance
JenneUCSC: its the best decision, specially since we booted annette for being an immun threat
JenneUCSC: mikey is 10X better
kazoobeffy: *grin* tomorrow night
kazoobeffy: exactly
JenneUCSC: tomorrow night, oops!
JenneUCSC: the only reason this is complicated is cause of our previous ties
JenneUCSC: which are shaky based on what he pulled
kazoobeffy: yeah
kazoobeffy: the other thing to remember
kazoobeffy: is we all promised to tell the person when they are being vote out
kazoobeffy: so we would need to make sure to talk to mikey beforehand
JenneUCSC: i had thought of that
JenneUCSC: been thinking about that
JenneUCSC: actually
kazoobeffy: yeah
kazoobeffy: I have to scoot .... time to leave this place
kazoobeffy: but I'll be home in about 30 mins
JenneUCSC: AND i wont be around for the TC on TH

[Jenne]

JenneUCSC: jesus woman you are fast
SurvivorGracie: *grin*
JenneUCSC: i was re-reading my last confessional cause i was gonna do another one before the next vote
JenneUCSC: i may only write one every two eps but they are collosol length
JenneUCSC: cant spell that
SurvivorGracie: :-)
SurvivorGracie: I do little ones every day .. they can use what they want :-)
JenneUCSC: kinda funny i write sooo much and it will be edited to like 2 sentences an episode
JenneUCSC: i treat it like my journal. i dont do sound bites. i just pour it all out
JenneUCSC: let them do the bitch work of editing it to the choice stuff
JenneUCSC: lol
SurvivorGracie: *grin* good for you.
JenneUCSC: i usually have a paragraph in each one gushing about you btw
SurvivorGracie: *grin* mine gush about you too
JenneUCSC: people will think we are either cute or gross
SurvivorGracie: cute
SurvivorGracie: darnit we're cute
JenneUCSC: but i garuntee you i wont be whining to my mommy bout it
JenneUCSC: mmh cute or eye candy?
JenneUCSC: which would you rather be?
SurvivorGracie: hmmm
SurvivorGracie: BOTH!
JenneUCSC: this is a either or game
SurvivorGracie: I wanna be cute eye candy ;-)
JenneUCSC: play along
SurvivorGracie: drats
SurvivorGracie: I wanna be eye candy
JenneUCSC: actually me and my best called it the "which would you rather" game
JenneUCSC: we had to come up with game sto play when we were backpacking thru europe
JenneUCSC: long waits for stuff and long train rides and stuff
SurvivorGracie: I can just picture you backpacking
JenneUCSC: i think i would rather cute
SurvivorGracie: what we gonna do tomororw night though?
JenneUCSC: implies more than looks. applies to personality and i like that
JenneUCSC: tay just signed on. wanna 3 way? i can tell him what mikey did and stuff?
SurvivorGracie: 3-way huh?
SurvivorGracie: *giggle*
JenneUCSC: he couldnt handle it
SurvivorGracie: so true

[Jenne]

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SurvivorGracie (3:48:35 PM): lmao
SurvivorGracie (3:48:39 PM): mud wrestling?
SurvivorGracie (3:48:43 PM): AGAIN!
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maroonedcastaway (3:49:08 PM): lol
JenneUCSC (3:49:12 PM): taylorserveshard wont accept chat invites
SurvivorGracie (3:49:25 PM): I thought I was all DONE mud wrestling
maroonedcastaway (3:49:27 PM): Yeah I'm just on maroonedcastaway
SurvivorGracie (3:49:27 PM): and damnit I won it
JenneUCSC (3:49:28 PM): *slings 10 tons of mud @ gracie*
JenneUCSC (3:49:30 PM): lmao
SurvivorGracie (3:50:00 PM): *sends Jenne to Ras Momi*
JenneUCSC (3:50:12 PM): i want my momi!
SurvivorGracie (3:50:25 PM): yer a goof
SurvivorGracie (3:50:40 PM): so
SurvivorGracie (3:50:42 PM): kyle or tenzil?
maroonedcastaway (3:50:42 PM): So
maroonedcastaway (3:50:48 PM): Tenz
maroonedcastaway (3:50:53 PM): for me anyway
JenneUCSC (3:51:04 PM): its the hardest decision of the game so far, but i agree with taylor
maroonedcastaway (3:51:05 PM): after what he said to jamie he lost the game with me right there
SurvivorGracie (3:51:43 PM): okay .. but
SurvivorGracie (3:51:48 PM): we HAVE to tell him
JenneUCSC (3:51:58 PM): we do
JenneUCSC (3:52:04 PM): but taylor and I wont be around
maroonedcastaway (3:52:10 PM): we can't do it to early
JenneUCSC (3:52:20 PM): too early and he causes rucus
maroonedcastaway (3:52:31 PM): thankfully for us tenzil and kyle hate each other
maroonedcastaway (3:52:41 PM): but if he spills his guts who knows what could happen
SurvivorGracie (3:53:06 PM): <sigh> I hate the thought of voting him out
JenneUCSC (3:53:25 PM): i do too, but gamewise its the right call
JenneUCSC (3:53:34 PM): he has been blowing this game right and left
maroonedcastaway (3:53:38 PM): I agree
SurvivorGracie (3:53:43 PM): I do too
SurvivorGracie (3:54:01 PM): but
maroonedcastaway (3:54:01 PM): he could have easily and still easily lose the game for all of us
SurvivorGracie (3:54:01 PM): and this is where I screw myself generally
maroonedcastaway (3:54:01 PM): I mean even though we are down to 6
SurvivorGracie (3:54:03 PM): game isn't as important as mikey
JenneUCSC (3:54:23 PM): yes but this isnt a choice between teh game and mikey
JenneUCSC (3:54:30 PM): mikey will still be our friend no matter what
JenneUCSC (3:54:55 PM): do you want him in the f2?
SurvivorGracie (3:55:00 PM): no
JenneUCSC (3:55:03 PM): unless you do, we have to vote him out at some point
JenneUCSC (3:55:10 PM): he has earned his place the least
SurvivorGracie (3:55:42 PM): true
SurvivorGracie (3:56:17 PM): this is just hard, ya know?
JenneUCSC (3:56:18 PM): i'm as big a softie as anyone, but frankly we have covered for his butt all game
JenneUCSC (3:56:22 PM): and he keeps fuckn up
SurvivorGracie (3:56:26 PM): *nods*
JenneUCSC (3:56:28 PM): i'm sick of his game effecting ours
SurvivorGracie (3:56:35 PM): I agree
JenneUCSC (3:56:42 PM): the 3 of us have played so well, and he just hasnt
JenneUCSC (3:56:45 PM): i love him
JenneUCSC (3:56:53 PM): you both know how much i care about him
JenneUCSC (3:57:18 PM): but i feel this is the best decisio for the us to make
JenneUCSC (3:57:25 PM): even if i will throw up casting my vote
JenneUCSC (3:57:27 PM): this is survivor
JenneUCSC (3:57:33 PM): not love fest 2005
SurvivorGracie (3:57:36 PM): LOL
SurvivorGracie (3:57:40 PM): very true
SurvivorGracie (3:58:15 PM): okay
SurvivorGracie (3:58:18 PM): we vote out mikey
maroonedcastaway (3:58:22 PM): k
SurvivorGracie (3:58:28 PM): who's gonna be around to help tell him?
maroonedcastaway (3:58:33 PM): YOU
SurvivorGracie (3:58:36 PM): I dun want to face him all by myself
JenneUCSC (3:58:36 PM): lmao
maroonedcastaway (3:58:53 PM): I cold contact you on my cell phone tomorrow night
maroonedcastaway (3:58:55 PM): but I mean
SurvivorGracie (3:59:12 PM): ya'll this sucks
SurvivorGracie (3:59:24 PM): can you at least send him an e-mail?
SurvivorGracie (3:59:27 PM): or PM on the board?
JenneUCSC (3:59:47 PM): its bad timing. i wish this was a mon TC
JenneUCSC (3:59:56 PM): cause honestly i want to be the one to tell him
JenneUCSC (4:00:23 PM): i could tell him an hr before TC
JenneUCSC (4:00:31 PM): but thats as late as i'll be around
SurvivorGracie (4:01:07 PM): either of you online tonight?
SurvivorGracie (4:01:12 PM): or is that too soon?
JenneUCSC (4:02:04 PM): way too soon
JenneUCSC (4:02:17 PM): it be impossible for him to swing ellie or kyle though
maroonedcastaway (4:02:19 PM): way to soon
maroonedcastaway (4:03:14 PM): I don't want to risk it
SurvivorGracie (4:03:14 PM): when do I tell him then?
JenneUCSC (4:03:40 PM): we can tell him together if you want
JenneUCSC (4:03:53 PM): tomorrow at like 8/8:30 your time
JenneUCSC (4:04:03 PM): actually 8
maroonedcastaway (4:04:10 PM): umm I have one thing to say about the Michelle deal
JenneUCSC (4:04:12 PM): i have to leave for class at 5:30
SurvivorGracie (4:04:17 PM): okay
maroonedcastaway (4:04:32 PM): It's pretty messed up when CJ is giving you GOOD advice
JenneUCSC (4:04:39 PM): lmao
JenneUCSC (4:04:44 PM): i was impressed by CJ
maroonedcastaway (4:04:48 PM): I was too
JenneUCSC (4:04:50 PM): VERY
maroonedcastaway (4:04:50 PM): I was like
maroonedcastaway (4:04:52 PM): WOAH
SurvivorGracie (4:05:03 PM): I'm like GO CJ
SurvivorGracie (4:05:07 PM): even Nathan was good
JenneUCSC (4:05:21 PM): she is just way off the rocker on this one
maroonedcastaway (4:05:33 PM): I don't even see why she is so upset
JenneUCSC (4:05:36 PM): even chris thinks she is acting like a child and he's like her best friend in this survivor world
maroonedcastaway (4:05:36 PM): she blocked me
SurvivorGracie (4:07:10 PM): she needs drugs *grin*
maroonedcastaway (4:07:23 PM): so now I'm a little pissed and she gets rewritten as " THE BITCHY CHILD-MOLESTING SURVIVOR PLAYER."
SurvivorGracie (4:07:45 PM): LMAO
JenneUCSC (4:08:00 PM): *claps*
SurvivorGracie (4:08:24 PM): I haven't talked to either mich or linds in weeks
SurvivorGracie (4:08:25 PM): and I like it that way
SurvivorGracie (4:08:31 PM): I've been staying WAY out of this mess
maroonedcastaway (4:09:25 PM): I was going to make michelle very sypatheic the next few weeks
JenneUCSC (4:09:37 PM): i think it was CJ who made the point that the fact she is so offended has more to do with her own insecurities and doubts about herself than about anyone else
SurvivorGracie (4:10:35 PM): *nods*
SurvivorGracie (4:10:48 PM): she just digs herself further into a hole everytime she opens her mouth
maroonedcastaway (4:11:09 PM): I know
maroonedcastaway (4:11:15 PM): CJ really impressed me
SurvivorGracie (4:11:43 PM): here's a thought
SurvivorGracie (4:11:55 PM): will Michelle show up to play Holiday's all-stars?
SurvivorGracie (4:12:14 PM): *grin* 'cause I'm evil and I think like that
SurvivorGracie (4:12:40 PM): S-C representatives so far: Chris, Michelle, Rafe, Taylor, Beth and Jenne
JenneUCSC (4:12:53 PM): lol
JenneUCSC (4:12:57 PM): mikey too
JenneUCSC (4:13:00 PM): and no me
SurvivorGracie (4:13:05 PM): no mikey still
maroonedcastaway (4:13:20 PM): Mike may make it
maroonedcastaway (4:13:31 PM): I mean there will be a few people who drop
SurvivorGracie (4:13:41 PM): true
SurvivorGracie (4:13:51 PM): lol .. and then he'll want to kick our butts
JenneUCSC (4:13:59 PM): but wont have anyone to help him
JenneUCSC (4:14:07 PM): oops i didnt say thgat
SurvivorGracie (4:14:11 PM): lmao
SurvivorGracie (4:16:00 PM): did you see the message I posted for you Taylor?
maroonedcastaway (4:16:28 PM): yes its good
SurvivorGracie (4:16:37 PM): *smiles at the praise*
SurvivorGracie (4:16:45 PM): <-- ego needs stroking today
JenneUCSC (4:17:08 PM): *strokes beth*
JenneUCSC (4:17:13 PM): oops you meant your ego
JenneUCSC (4:17:18 PM): my bad!
SurvivorGracie (4:17:19 PM): LMAO
SurvivorGracie (4:17:25 PM): *that* needs stroking too
JenneUCSC (4:17:29 PM): *giggles*
SurvivorGracie (4:18:28 PM): lol .. Rob will like reading those lines ;-)
maroonedcastaway (4:18:37 PM): You two ladies are all mine
SurvivorGracie (4:18:44 PM): oooooooooooooh
maroonedcastaway (4:18:44 PM): Rob can back off
SurvivorGracie (4:18:48 PM): *pounces on Taylor*

[Jenne]

JenneUCSC (4:19:04 PM): *snorts*
JenneUCSC (4:19:09 PM): you are both covered in mud!
JenneUCSC (4:19:14 PM): *laughs and points*
SurvivorGracie (4:19:27 PM): dammit
SurvivorGracie (4:19:32 PM): didn't I WIN this already!
SurvivorGracie (4:19:40 PM): you and me Jenne
SurvivorGracie (4:19:42 PM): come on
SurvivorGracie (4:19:45 PM): we'll wrestle
JenneUCSC (4:19:55 PM): i is all clean
JenneUCSC (4:19:59 PM): cant i just watch?
SurvivorGracie (4:20:04 PM): NOOOOOOOOOOOO
SurvivorGracie (4:20:08 PM): come and get DIRTY with me
maroonedcastaway (4:20:12 PM): * pins Beth* You ain't waterboy this time
SurvivorGracie (4:20:19 PM): LOL
SurvivorGracie (4:20:39 PM): *grin* but I tackled that little girl linds
maroonedcastaway (4:21:15 PM): yes but she was to busy looking at mich
SurvivorGracie (4:21:25 PM): LOL
JenneUCSC (4:21:30 PM): *giggles*
SurvivorGracie (4:21:35 PM): and jay just liked the girl-on-girl action
JenneUCSC (4:21:46 PM): yah right!
JenneUCSC (4:21:50 PM): jay doesnt like anything to do with girls
maroonedcastaway (4:21:53 PM): he got an alien verison of a stiffy
SurvivorGracie (4:22:08 PM): LOL
JenneUCSC (4:22:09 PM): gross!
JenneUCSC (4:22:13 PM): *goes and throws up*
SurvivorGracie (4:22:32 PM): hye tay'
SurvivorGracie (4:22:38 PM): will your 'puter be fixed tomorrow?
maroonedcastaway (4:22:56 PM): I doubt it but I can get on it for like 10 minutes and send something to chris
SurvivorGracie (4:23:15 PM): you can send to me too if ya wnat since I have the password now
JenneUCSC (4:23:18 PM): chris got gay bashed today by crazy lady. everyone should give him hugs
maroonedcastaway (4:23:34 PM): aww
SurvivorGracie (4:23:39 PM): aw
JenneUCSC (4:23:43 PM): i am gonna beat the bitch down and give her concussion
JenneUCSC (4:23:50 PM): with my boobs!
JenneUCSC (4:23:53 PM): as he said
SurvivorGracie (4:24:41 PM): Beffy just gave Chris his hug
JenneUCSC (4:24:49 PM): awwww!
SurvivorGracie (4:25:12 PM): hey .. I do what I'm told
JenneUCSC (4:25:29 PM): in that case....
JenneUCSC (4:25:35 PM): *thinks dirty thoughts*
SurvivorGracie (4:25:56 PM): oooooooooooooh
SurvivorGracie (4:25:56 PM): *takes Jenne in the 'other' room*
JenneUCSC (4:26:11 PM): is that the pillow room?
JenneUCSC (4:26:18 PM): should we hose off first?
SurvivorGracie (4:26:24 PM): ooh...
SurvivorGracie (4:26:28 PM): definitely
SurvivorGracie (4:26:41 PM): *sprays down Jenne's lovely, lithe, little body*
maroonedcastaway (4:26:50 PM): I wanna play
maroonedcastaway (4:27:00 PM): I've got the Orleans buffs
JenneUCSC (4:27:03 PM): give him the hose!
maroonedcastaway (4:27:12 PM): Damnit why do we want to be named after Eliza
JenneUCSC (4:27:20 PM): i is allll wet!
JenneUCSC (4:27:35 PM): *bounces*
SurvivorGracie (4:27:36 PM): *sprays down Taylor*
SurvivorGracie (4:27:43 PM): including the bulge in his jeans
SurvivorGracie (4:27:46 PM): *giggle*
JenneUCSC (4:28:25 PM): make him take his shirt off!
SurvivorGracie (4:29:00 PM): <--- strips Taylor down to the buff
JenneUCSC (4:29:07 PM): even better!
JenneUCSC (4:29:11 PM): must be cold water
JenneUCSC (4:29:15 PM): *giggles*
JenneUCSC (4:29:17 PM): jp
maroonedcastaway (4:29:34 PM): lol
maroonedcastaway (4:29:40 PM): You know better Jenne
maroonedcastaway (4:29:47 PM): ;-)
JenneUCSC (4:29:53 PM): true, taylor has a big beautiful cock
JenneUCSC (4:29:59 PM): i can not tell a lie
maroonedcastaway (4:30:11 PM): Chris said it was the most beautiful he had ever seen
SurvivorGracie (4:30:20 PM): *pouts* I never got the pictures
JenneUCSC (4:30:32 PM): i didnt either beth
JenneUCSC (4:30:36 PM): only chris gets im
JenneUCSC (4:30:46 PM): which makes me wonder why taylor bulges in a room with just us
JenneUCSC (4:30:52 PM): O:-)
SurvivorGracie (4:30:55 PM): we'll have to bribe Chris for those pics
JenneUCSC (4:31:30 PM): i only saw them at his house
maroonedcastaway (4:31:36 PM): Chris gets them as payment for editing socotra
SurvivorGracie (4:31:39 PM): ooh .. I wanna see!
JenneUCSC (4:31:57 PM): lmao
JenneUCSC (4:32:06 PM): i got payed nothing for all the daily reports i did!
JenneUCSC (4:32:11 PM): *goes on strike*
JenneUCSC (4:32:13 PM): too late
SurvivorGracie (4:32:17 PM): I didn't get paid for all the work I did!
maroonedcastaway (4:32:17 PM): you got my ass
JenneUCSC (4:32:58 PM): *scoffs*
JenneUCSC (4:33:04 PM): money shot honey!
JenneUCSC (4:33:07 PM): all that matters
maroonedcastaway (4:34:07 PM): you'll get it
SurvivorGracie (4:34:14 PM): what about MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
maroonedcastaway (4:34:15 PM): if we all three get to the final two
maroonedcastaway (4:34:19 PM): I mean final three
SurvivorGracie (4:34:27 PM): *teaches Taylor how to count*
JenneUCSC (4:34:37 PM): he is bribing us with his penis???
SurvivorGracie (4:34:47 PM): sounds it to me!
JenneUCSC (4:34:49 PM): i hope this is in the story, my mom will be so proud!
JenneUCSC (4:35:16 PM): its like the f3 of soc all got my boobs
JenneUCSC (4:35:23 PM): f3 of valentines day get tay cock
SurvivorGracie (4:35:33 PM): woot!
SurvivorGracie (4:35:43 PM): I still ahve the jenne's boob pictures ;-)
JenneUCSC (4:35:52 PM): michelle does too
SurvivorGracie (4:35:52 PM): and I wasn't even supposed to be in that competition *giggle*
JenneUCSC (4:35:57 PM): and i bet you linds has em too
SurvivorGracie (4:36:03 PM): hope mich doesn't tell linds ;-)
JenneUCSC (4:36:27 PM): they have gotten smaller though
JenneUCSC (4:36:31 PM): i am sad to report
SurvivorGracie (4:36:35 PM): ya know
SurvivorGracie (4:36:39 PM): when I lose weight
SurvivorGracie (4:36:43 PM): it's NEVER from my boobs
SurvivorGracie (4:36:46 PM): which, btw
SurvivorGracie (4:36:55 PM): is WHERE I would like to lose some from
SurvivorGracie (4:37:04 PM): I have seriously considered breast reduction
JenneUCSC (4:37:12 PM): yah i lost weight i think. i'm never that conscious of it but i used to wear an 8 and now 6
JenneUCSC (4:37:54 PM): bras still all fit so i dont think my boobs lost much
SurvivorGracie (4:38:09 PM): I want to lose a BUNCH from my boobs
SurvivorGracie (4:38:11 PM): I hate 'em
JenneUCSC (4:38:18 PM): i think you should have the surgery
SurvivorGracie (4:38:18 PM): even when I wore a size 2
SurvivorGracie (4:38:21 PM): they were huge
maroonedcastaway (4:38:40 PM): hi eliza's mother
SurvivorGracie (4:38:48 PM): LOL
JenneUCSC (4:39:01 PM): bigger than watermelons!
JenneUCSC (4:39:12 PM): mine are like two giant mangos
SurvivorGracie (4:39:51 PM): *giggle* mine are droopy watermelons
maroonedcastaway (4:39:55 PM): I just signed off
SurvivorGracie (4:39:59 PM): how come?
SurvivorGracie (4:40:01 PM): Ross?
JenneUCSC (4:40:42 PM): omg lucas shows up
SurvivorGracie (4:41:41 PM): should we invite him in?
SurvivorGracie (4:41:52 PM): we don't have to tell him
SurvivorGracie (4:41:58 PM): but might be nice to ivite him
JenneUCSC (4:43:02 PM): i dont have a problem with it. but we should start a new chat
SurvivorGracie (4:43:10 PM): okies
JenneUCSC (4:43:10 PM): dont need him to know the 3 of us were all talkn
SurvivorGracie has left the chat room.

[Jenne]

SurvivorGracie: I almost want to ask him if he was a f2 with Kyle
JenneUCSC: i am sure he has to
SurvivorGracie: but I don't want him to ask US
JenneUCSC: i dont feel the need to ask. i assume!
SurvivorGracie: :-(
JenneUCSC: *holds hand* we'll do it together honey
JenneUCSC: i dont want to make you do this on your own
JenneUCSC: i wish i could be there. with tay and i both gone feels like a wimpy mans vote
SurvivorGracie: I just wish tenz would come out with what he did
JenneUCSC: where is he?
JenneUCSC: its weird he's not here
SurvivorGracie: Chris?
SurvivorGracie: he's online
JenneUCSC: mikey
SurvivorGracie: I'm wondering if he's avoiding us
SurvivorGracie: 'cause he wasn't online last night either
JenneUCSC: he's usually ALWAYS on
SurvivorGracie: yeah .. I know
SurvivorGracie: and since yesterday afternoon
SurvivorGracie: nada
SurvivorGracie: which is why I'm wondering if rob or karen said something to him
JenneUCSC: shouldnt they have told us if they did?
SurvivorGracie: I would think so
SurvivorGracie: maybe some kind of announcement
JenneUCSC: well at least let those it effected know
JenneUCSC: kyle/ellie should not be told anything
SurvivorGracie: eah
JenneUCSC: i'm not just stroking his ego either. he really does have a lovely dick
SurvivorGracie: I WANT TO SEE
JenneUCSC: chris showed me then we discussed it for quite awhile
JenneUCSC: lmao
SurvivorGracie: LOL
SurvivorGracie: you guys are silly
JenneUCSC: we are! its what we have in common though!
SurvivorGracie: :-)
SurvivorGracie: he's iming me :-(
JenneUCSC: not me
JenneUCSC: he has barely talked to me in this game
JenneUCSC: i miss my mikey
JenneUCSC: lucas isnt the same
SurvivorGracie: I know
SurvivorGracie: :-(
JenneUCSC: i dont get him
JenneUCSC: i really dont
JenneUCSC: its just weird
JenneUCSC: he talks to you WAY more than he does me
JenneUCSC: i feel left out
JenneUCSC: :-(
SurvivorGracie: aw *hugs*
SurvivorGracie: I don't get it either
SurvivorGracie: unless he thinks he can manipulate me more than you
JenneUCSC: it was after the jamie boot
JenneUCSC: hasnt been the same
SurvivorGracie: whats sad to me
SurvivorGracie: is I have no clue what Jamie is telling him
SurvivorGracie: but I think she saying "something" to him that brought this change in him
SurvivorGracie: what hurts too is that he talks to me . .and yet won't tell me that he told jamie
JenneUCSC: and that he doesnt talk to me and yet tells me that
JenneUCSC: i is confused!
SurvivorGracie: me is confused with you
SurvivorGracie: I'm so tempted to say something to him
SurvivorGracie: like .. just TELL me already
JenneUCSC: :-(
SurvivorGracie: and its sad to see our 4 names listed as online
SurvivorGracie: and think we *should* be the final 4 together
JenneUCSC: awww, we are a cute lil pack huh!
SurvivorGracie: this is sucky, ya know
JenneUCSC: :-(
SurvivorGracie: :-( .. I'm not good at this part
JenneUCSC: is he talking bout the vote?
SurvivorGracie: not at all
SurvivorGracie: he is just presuming, of course, that its Kyle
SurvivorGracie: is there a chat going on?
JenneUCSC: nope
SurvivorGracie: just wondered
JenneUCSC: he never talks strategy with me really. if someone doesnt, makes me wonder....
SurvivorGracie: same here
SurvivorGracie: he never talks strategy either
SurvivorGracie: just presumes that I will vote whichever way he tells me
JenneUCSC: as far as he knows you are closest to him over anyone else in the game
SurvivorGracie: yeah .. I don't think he has a clue how close you and I are
SurvivorGracie: or even THINKS we have a f2 or anything
SurvivorGracie: even though he has never offered me one or anything
JenneUCSC: same here
JenneUCSC: he never m ade one with me, what is he planning!
JenneUCSC: i hate not being able to see into his mind
SurvivorGracie: LOL I know
SurvivorGracie: it just makes me know that he has plans
SurvivorGracie: and well
SurvivorGracie: he told me I wasn't included in any of his basically
JenneUCSC: we arent in em
SurvivorGracie: other than getting him to the f4
JenneUCSC: but he never even told me that
JenneUCSC: if he wanted a f3 with me and tay, shoudlnt he have talked to us about it?
SurvivorGracie: I would have thought so
SurvivorGracie: I mean ... sheeeeeeeeeeeeesh
SurvivorGracie: you and I have talked constantly about our plans
SurvivorGracie: and how to make them happen
JenneUCSC: its called playing the game as a team
JenneUCSC: he doesnt feel like he's a part of a "team"
SurvivorGracie: maybe because he's hasn't been playing that way
JenneUCSC: i know he hasnt
SurvivorGracie: and yet
SurvivorGracie: I feel horridly guilty for voting him out
SurvivorGracie: especially before the f5 mark = and all-stars
JenneUCSC: he has been counting on us blindly following him
JenneUCSC: he can have my allstars spot
JenneUCSC: seriously!
SurvivorGracie: noooooooooooooooooooooo
SurvivorGracie: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
SurvivorGracie: he can have MINE
SurvivorGracie: I'm not so sure I want to play AGAIN with Chris and Michelle
SurvivorGracie: it would make the 4th game with those two
JenneUCSC: ugh!
SurvivorGracie: and .. I'm not sure I need that
SurvivorGracie: yeah
SurvivorGracie: Oki
SurvivorGracie: Socotra
SurvivorGracie: Cozumel
JenneUCSC: its not our job to get him to allstar you know
JenneUCSC: i dont feel guilty cause of that
JenneUCSC: cause if not for us he wouldnt have made merge
JenneUCSC: so dont let that factor for you
JenneUCSC: its not our job to make him an allstar
SurvivorGracie: I know
JenneUCSC: i think its important we tell him together
JenneUCSC: i dont want you to have to do it alone
SurvivorGracie: yeah
SurvivorGracie: I'm just not sure I can NOT tell him if he starts talking about the vote tomorrow
SurvivorGracie: does that make sense?
JenneUCSC: do what you need to.
SurvivorGracie: it would feel cruel to me to let him think all day that he's safe when he's not
JenneUCSC: but really doesnt seem like he wants to talk about it
JenneUCSC: he already feels like its a done deal
SurvivorGracie: I know
SurvivorGracie: and that bugs me too
SurvivorGracie: I just wish he'd TELL me what he did
SurvivorGracie: i mean
SurvivorGracie: I don't feel like I can talk to him until he tells me
SurvivorGracie: I just feel all short with him
JenneUCSC: let me bring it up with him
JenneUCSC: see if he told you guys
SurvivorGracie: I've told you about Ionian Seas haven't I?
JenneUCSC: a lil bit
SurvivorGracie: that's part of why this is tough to me
SurvivorGracie: because of what Amy and Ross did to me
SurvivorGracie: and honestly .. and this may suck and be totally awful of me
SurvivorGracie: but since Okinawa .. and how I was voted out there
SurvivorGracie: I just can't bring myself to be awful to someone like that
JenneUCSC: we are just voting him out
JenneUCSC: we arent being nasty
JenneUCSC: or mean
JenneUCSC: or toying with him
JenneUCSC: but i understand your feelings
JenneUCSC: i am very aware of handling this the right way
SurvivorGracie: I know you are :-)
SurvivorGracie: that's why I know I can tell you how I feel :-)
JenneUCSC: always
SurvivorGracie: without you doubting me and stuff, ya know?
JenneUCSC: you know i know!
SurvivorGracie: *hugs my Jenne*
JenneUCSC: i love him. i really truly do. he was always the one i was closest too in this crazy community
JenneUCSC: and if a month ago you would have asked me if i ever could have voted him out i would have told you i would rather lose to him then vote him out
JenneUCSC: but that was before i worked my butt off to be here. and now i have too much respect for this game and what it takes to get this far to give the win away
JenneUCSC: something changed in me along the way i guess
SurvivorGracie: I understand totally
JenneUCSC: you will be the toughest for me to beat in the end. we will be too tough to call. but you earned that spot and i did too
JenneUCSC: i want US there
SurvivorGracie: *nods* I want us there too
SurvivorGracie: you and me in the end .. just FEELS right
JenneUCSC: full circle
SurvivorGracie: yep
SurvivorGracie: lol .. though right now I'd love to peek at the LL board
JenneUCSC: you mean where liz trashes us and jamie chimes in and its a big gracie/jenne hate fest?
JenneUCSC: he told me he hasnt talked to you guys but that he got a whack on his knuckles from someone else
SurvivorGracie: oooh
SurvivorGracie: Rob and Karen then
SurvivorGracie: what did they say to him?


JenneUCSC: not sure, that he's not allowed to explain anything about himself?
JenneUCSC: not sure
SurvivorGracie: that sounds weird
JenneUCSC: ii reiterated he needed to tell you guys
JenneUCSC: and he said he will
JenneUCSC: i said when?
JenneUCSC: he said after the vote cause he doesnt want to piss you guys off more then necessary
SurvivorGracie: it's gonna PISS me off MORE the longer he freaken waits
JenneUCSC: he wants to wait
JenneUCSC: he wont tell you till after the vote
SurvivorGracie: and the fact he wants to wait until after a vote just so HE WILL BE SAFE
SurvivorGracie: is an insult to me
JenneUCSC: he says its cause you guys dont know bout his feelings for jamie like me so you wont understand why he felt he needed to tell her everything
SurvivorGracie: <sigh>
SurvivorGracie: that's just insulting
SurvivorGracie: he's already told me how he feels
SurvivorGracie: I understand why he told her about HIMSELF
SurvivorGracie: but .. we all agreed to not reveal our relationship or who we are until after the game
SurvivorGracie: how would he like it if I told Kyle who I am and who he is .. just because i like him
JenneUCSC: if he talks to jamie bout game again he is booted and not even on the jury
SurvivorGracie: lol .. thats funny .. who's gonna tell on 'em?
JenneUCSC: word!
SurvivorGracie: *grin* I ain't your average dummy
JenneUCSC: nah, cuter
SurvivorGracie: :-D
JenneUCSC: i got to get outta here. section tonight. ttyl honey *hugs* take care and dont feel too badly!
SurvivorGracie: *hugs*
SurvivorGracie: see ya later :-)

[Jenne]

JenneUCSC: where have you been young man?
LucasHorowitz: shopping for food
JenneUCSC: havnt seen you forever!
JenneUCSC: food? someone get paid?
JenneUCSC: no noodles!
LucasHorowitz: well...not much better the noodles :-P
JenneUCSC: rice and beans?
LucasHorowitz: tiny little pizzas
JenneUCSC: no wonder you are so scrawny. i'd love to get a good solid meal in yah
LucasHorowitz: I'm scrawny since all my life. I'm not a big eater normally
JenneUCSC: jamie will feed yah
JenneUCSC: she is greek!
LucasHorowitz: thats what everyone says
JenneUCSC: man, i am sooo unoriginal
LucasHorowitz: its all the homework. its made your brain mushy
JenneUCSC: tru dat
JenneUCSC: *hates HW*
LucasHorowitz: I know, I know
JenneUCSC: i hate making sc hool lunches too
JenneUCSC: *whines*
LucasHorowitz: but thats what moms do. its good practise for the future
JenneUCSC: because making a pb&j requires the contruction of thousands before you can do it right?
JenneUCSC: :-P
LucasHorowitz: hehehe
LucasHorowitz: its an important job!
JenneUCSC: lol
JenneUCSC: my kid eats sooo much food now
JenneUCSC: it overflows over the top of the bag
JenneUCSC: they need teengage size lunch bags
LucasHorowitz: they're growing boys
LucasHorowitz: you must be so proud of them!
JenneUCSC: i really am they both came out soo good. the oldest imed me today for advice!!! which i love
JenneUCSC: and the youngest always talks to me bout girl problems
JenneUCSC: i just adore my boys
LucasHorowitz: you're such a good mom :-)
JenneUCSC: *beams*
LucasHorowitz: :-)
JenneUCSC: have you talked to beth and taylor about jamie knowing everything and stuff?
LucasHorowitz: no but I did get a whack on my knuckles from someone else
JenneUCSC: huh?
LucasHorowitz: I'm not allowed to explain anything about myself, apparently.
JenneUCSC: you got in trouble from the hosts for telling jamie?
LucasHorowitz: yup
JenneUCSC: cause you talked game with someone who got voted out huh
LucasHorowitz: well it was just in regards to who I was but that wasn't cool. it wasn't like I was telling her plans and shut but oh well. I just shut up now
JenneUCSC: well telling her who you are was one thing, but you told her potentially game effecting stuff
JenneUCSC: i understand their position
JenneUCSC: i was kinda upset you told her myself
LucasHorowitz: I know
JenneUCSC: and i do think you owe it to taylor and beth to tell them
LucasHorowitz: I will
JenneUCSC: when?
LucasHorowitz: um....after the vote?
LucasHorowitz: I don't wanna piss them off more then necessary
JenneUCSC: why would it piss them off more or less depending on when they know?
LucasHorowitz: I'm not sure if it will. but I'd rather wait if its ok?
JenneUCSC: :-( i no like it mikey. *sighs* this game is hard
LucasHorowitz: i mean, they don't know how much I like Jamie. so they don't appreciate why i felt I had to tell her anything like you do
JenneUCSC: :-( i know how much she means to you. i can understand why you needed to be honest with her
JenneUCSC: even if i dont like it
LucasHorowitz: it's ok. I got my knuckles rapped. and I wouldn't blame you if you punished me for it
JenneUCSC: what did they do?
JenneUCSC: knuckles rapped?
LucasHorowitz: if I say anything else to her AT ALL about ANYTHING I am gone. period. not even on jury
JenneUCSC: you cant talk to her at all anymore?
JenneUCSC: :-(
LucasHorowitz: we can talk. just NOTHING about the game
JenneUCSC: well thats good
LucasHorowitz: she just has to wait two weeks before I can finish the cleansing
JenneUCSC: cleansing?
LucasHorowitz: there's more to say and do. but it has to wait
JenneUCSC: with jamie?
LucasHorowitz: yes
JenneUCSC: mikey you are talking around me in circles. i'm getting dizzy
LucasHorowitz: I'm sorry
LucasHorowitz: there's just a bunch of questions she has that I can't answer now until the game is done
JenneUCSC: bout you are all us?
LucasHorowitz: both
JenneUCSC: well i would love to "come clean" with her too. if she still wants a friendship with me
LucasHorowitz: I'd ask her but I'm scared to too. I just won't talk about anythign remotely related to the game now with her
JenneUCSC: it can wait. game is close to over. there will be a lot of repair work needed when all is said and done i am sure
JenneUCSC: how this game is
LucasHorowitz: I know
JenneUCSC: alright gots to get outta here. have section tonight. i'll catch u later on mah dear!
LucasHorowitz: kays. bye bye!

[Jenne]

JenneUCSC: *shoves taylor back into mud pit*
taylorserveshard: i can't see what your typing
taylorserveshard: okay
JenneUCSC: in that case
JenneUCSC: *spanks taylor's monkey*
JenneUCSC: *giggles*
taylorserveshard: lol
taylorserveshard: I can see now
JenneUCSC: damn it!
JenneUCSC: *shoves taylor back into mud pit*
taylorserveshard: lol
taylorserveshard: *Gets back up and wrestles jenne to the ground
JenneUCSC: *doesnt fight it*
taylorserveshard: *covers jenne with mud*
JenneUCSC: hey now! *reversal flip* *pins taylor down and rubs mud all in his hair*
JenneUCSC: so there! :-P
taylorserveshard: awww
taylorserveshard: you are soo cute when you are mad
JenneUCSC: *shoves titties in his face to keep him from fighting back*
JenneUCSC: lmao
JenneUCSC: how's that for cute!
JenneUCSC: >
taylorserveshard: * your smothering me*
JenneUCSC: that was the point mah dear
taylorserveshard: so you want to kill me
taylorserveshard: you really are a villian now
JenneUCSC: lmao
JenneUCSC: has a villain ever committed murder by boobie smothering?
taylorserveshard: no
JenneUCSC: well at least im original *lets taylor up*
taylorserveshard: very orginal
taylorserveshard: Throws some more mud on Jenne*
JenneUCSC: you are a jerk! *slings mud back*
taylorserveshard: YOU SLUNG MUDD AT ME FIRST
taylorserveshard: I'M TELLING RAS MOMI
JenneUCSC: no fair!

[Jenne]

SurvivorGracie: you are gonna HATE me
JenneUCSC: uh oh
SurvivorGracie: and I don't blame you
JenneUCSC: did you tell him?
SurvivorGracie: no
SurvivorGracie: ellie
JenneUCSC: ellie?
JenneUCSC: what???
SurvivorGracie: ellie asked me what the vote was
SurvivorGracie: I told her I heard between kyle and lucas
SurvivorGracie: and asked her who she wnated to vote
SurvivorGracie: and asked me "if my alliance was saying'
SurvivorGracie: she already knew about the alliance
SurvivorGracie: so I didn't lie
SurvivorGracie: but ellie is ticked at hell at me
SurvivorGracie: if you need to vote me out tomorrow night
SurvivorGracie: do it
JenneUCSC: she thought you were allied with kyle and taylor or whatever
SurvivorGracie: I won't be mad
JenneUCSC: im confused
JenneUCSC: what happened?
SurvivorGracie: she knew about me, you and the guys
SurvivorGracie: and she knew she wasn't included
SurvivorGracie: I just couldn't lie to her
SurvivorGracie: I'm sorry jenne
SurvivorGracie: so very sorry
SurvivorGracie: she told me that if you or I are in the f2 with anyone else .. we lose
JenneUCSC: what on earth did you do
JenneUCSC: yikes
SurvivorGracie: she asked me how long we've had an alliance
SurvivorGracie: and I told her since after the beginning of the game
JenneUCSC: i told you i wanted to tell her
JenneUCSC: why?
JenneUCSC: why
SurvivorGracie: she plans on showing the entire conversation to you, kyle, lucas and taylor
SurvivorGracie: she cornerd me
SurvivorGracie: and I feel awful
SurvivorGracie: and terrible
SurvivorGracie: I really
SurvivorGracie: *sobs* I can't even tell you how bad I feel
SurvivorGracie: jenne.. i'm so sorry
SurvivorGracie: i messed up big
SurvivorGracie: you may need to vote me out
SurvivorGracie: its okay
SurvivorGracie: I know I screwed it up
SurvivorGracie: I know
JenneUCSC: you always over react
JenneUCSC: what does it matter if she knows about the alliance?
SurvivorGracie: lmao
SurvivorGracie: I didn't think it would .. honestly .. but I don't know
SurvivorGracie: I'm just like
SurvivorGracie: I MESSED THE FUCK UP
SurvivorGracie: feed me valium
SurvivorGracie: and tell me to calm down
SurvivorGracie: I kept Lucas out of stuff
SurvivorGracie: god jenne
SurvivorGracie: please shoot me
SurvivorGracie: god .. I'm worse than mikey
JenneUCSC: i'm talking to her
JenneUCSC: dont worry
JenneUCSC: she cant do anything no matter what anyways
JenneUCSC: and i told you i was thinking bout coming clean bout the alliance anyways
SurvivorGracie: I know .. but I shouldn't have said a single word
SurvivorGracie: please hate and yell at me
SurvivorGracie: I'd feel better if you'd yell at me
SurvivorGracie: .. still there?
SurvivorGracie: jenne?
JenneUCSC: i'm here
SurvivorGracie: I'm sorry
SurvivorGracie: I'm really terribly sorry
SurvivorGracie: please talk to me
JenneUCSC: i'm just working things out with ellie
JenneUCSC: i'm crying
JenneUCSC: :-(
SurvivorGracie: I am too
SurvivorGracie: I feel horrid
SurvivorGracie: are you at home?
SurvivorGracie: or school still?
SurvivorGracie: jenne I'm so sorry
JenneUCSC: at home
SurvivorGracie: can I call?
JenneUCSC: aww beth!
JenneUCSC: are you really that upset?
SurvivorGracie: yeah
SurvivorGracie: I hate that I do this
SurvivorGracie: I never wanted to hurt you
JenneUCSC: its not your fault
JenneUCSC: she was gonna find out eventually
SurvivorGracie: I know ... I just ... I need a big roll of masking tape and tape my fingers together
SurvivorGracie: I just feel like I screwed this up for everyone
SurvivorGracie: worse than mikey
SurvivorGracie: and what sucked
SurvivorGracie: is I couldn't explain to Ellie *why* hurting her was so awful to me
SurvivorGracie: I couldn't tell her who I was
SurvivorGracie: and why I felt the way I did about things
JenneUCSC: honey, she is just one person
JenneUCSC: we are still an alliance of 5
JenneUCSC: stop beating yourself up
SurvivorGracie: I know
SurvivorGracie: i just
SurvivorGracie: you know how I am
SurvivorGracie: lol
JenneUCSC: i know!
JenneUCSC: *hugs*
SurvivorGracie: jenne I am so sorry
SurvivorGracie: what do we do now?
SurvivorGracie: how can I clean up my mess?
JenneUCSC: i dont think there is anything to do
SurvivorGracie:
SurvivorGracie: I'm sorry
SurvivorGracie: phone number please
SurvivorGracie: beffy must talk to jenne
SurvivorGracie: if you want, that is
SurvivorGracie: lol
JenneUCSC: i do, but its hard to talk and type to all these people. i can call you free on my cell phone though if you want
SurvivorGracie: lol .. i was gonna call you on my cell (which is also free)
JenneUCSC: lol
SurvivorGracie: are you talking with both Kyle and Ellie?
JenneUCSC: yep
SurvivorGracie: am I enemy #1?
JenneUCSC: nope
JenneUCSC: ellie wants kyle gone tomorrow
SurvivorGracie: wow
SurvivorGracie: i'm
SurvivorGracie: shocked
SurvivorGracie: does she say *why* Kyle?
JenneUCSC: she feels he has always had an air of supiority iwth him
SurvivorGracie: LOL
SurvivorGracie: and he feels like she's never tried to know him
JenneUCSC: he said that to me too
SurvivorGracie: jenne
SurvivorGracie: remember how we were talking about all-stars
SurvivorGracie: I don't think I can do it
JenneUCSC: i dont either
SurvivorGracie: me and you
SurvivorGracie: we are so much alike
SurvivorGracie: you know how I feel
SurvivorGracie: 'cause you would be too
SurvivorGracie: remind me next time to simply play solitaire
JenneUCSC: will do!
JenneUCSC: lol
JenneUCSC: she wants kyle gone
JenneUCSC: her and lucas will vote kyle
JenneUCSC: taylor/kyle will vote for lucas
JenneUCSC: its up to us
JenneUCSC: in the middle
SurvivorGracie: LOL
SurvivorGracie: still lucas?
JenneUCSC: i hurt
JenneUCSC: you know my cell #
JenneUCSC: its tatooed on your arm
SurvivorGracie: I couldn't find it
SurvivorGracie:
JenneUCSC: again?!
JenneUCSC: *fumes*
SurvivorGracie: I suck
JenneUCSC: *drags gracie to tattoo parlour*
SurvivorGracie: woot
SurvivorGracie: recite that number please *begs*
SurvivorGracie: I'm taping it to a piece of paper on my monitor
SurvivorGracie: where it will stay forevermore
JenneUCSC: 831-234-9473
SurvivorGracie: *dialing*
SurvivorGracie signed off at 8:31:29 PM.

[Jenne]

JenneUCSC: ready to talk?
Love Struck Muse: sure
JenneUCSC: gracie told me she told you and i'm frankly upset because i was planning on talking to you after the annette vote. but we havnt been on ever at the same time
JenneUCSC: because this isnt how i wanted you to hear it
Love Struck Muse: ok
JenneUCSC: there is a reason you are still here, ok
JenneUCSC: i know you probally really dont like me anymore
JenneUCSC: but i absolutely adore you
JenneUCSC: i couldnt ever tell you
Love Struck Muse: no, i still you, jenne.
Love Struck Muse: i still like* LOL
JenneUCSC: but you are here because i wanted you here. i made sure of that. and i knew that alliance was gonna combust
JenneUCSC: lucas and kyle hate each other
JenneUCSC: so i awlays knew one of them would go at this point
Love Struck Muse: yeah... so i really needed immunity next time. ha, the irony of me finally winning.
JenneUCSC: i would not have voted for annette unless i knew you were safe. but i was really happy you won immunity
JenneUCSC: and i dont think you are gone next either
JenneUCSC: everything i did in this game was to keep the people i liked. so no matter what the f2 was i would be happy with the winner
JenneUCSC: i've always wanted you here
JenneUCSC: even though i couldnt tell you everything that was goin on
Love Struck Muse: Yeah... I'm not sure what to say to all this.
JenneUCSC: you dont have to say anything
Love Struck Muse: With Gracie it was one thing because I never thought she wanted me with her in the final 2... but with you it was different. So yeah.
JenneUCSC: i wanted you to know as soon as it was safe to tell you. i just wanted to be the one to tell you. because i do care about you. nothing was ever faked by me. i hope you know how sincere i am when i say that
JenneUCSC: i couldnt tell you till now though. it would have killed my game. and frankly this game sux when you get to the end
Love Struck Muse: I'm actually crying right now. It's just a lot to handle having just come from a game where the person I trusted most and thought was such a great friend completely backstabbed me and now i feel like it could happen again and already partially has
JenneUCSC: do you know how much it killed me when you told bout that too?
JenneUCSC: i felt like the worlds biggest chump
JenneUCSC: cause i hadnt told you what was goin on. but seriously ellie i have done everything in my power in this game to get you and i further
JenneUCSC: no, you werent in that alliance. but it didnt matter. cause you were always safe
JenneUCSC: always
JenneUCSC: i made sure of it
JenneUCSC: always
JenneUCSC: now im crying
Love Struck Muse: i know... and i believe you on that.
Love Struck Muse: and you aren't the chump... that would be me.
Love Struck Muse: i don't know why i'm crying... all my emotions just came up at once... all this game stuff and real life
JenneUCSC: i know. its a game but it is intense. feelings get involved
JenneUCSC: that is why jamie had to go actually. lucas was falling for her
JenneUCSC: and she was lying about me. and it was just messy
JenneUCSC: but emotions are a part of this game. and i never thought i could write your name down. still dont
JenneUCSC: i always figured i could get to this f6
JenneUCSC: lucas and kyle would explode
JenneUCSC: one would go, then you, gracie, and I would have majority
JenneUCSC: cause thats the f3 i wanted
Love Struck Muse: that's not the one she wants
JenneUCSC: cause gracie and you were my favorite girls from the beginning
Love Struck Muse: yeah, you were my favorite from the first time we talked. i thought of us as a team... like the one person i could tell everything people said to me. *sigh*
JenneUCSC: i know i let you down. i knew i would
JenneUCSC: i never made a single alliance in this game
JenneUCSC: i just never said no to any either
Love Struck Muse: i feel so stupid. i never even suspected you would be a part of that... just all the stuff you told me about your first game and how that person hurt you so badly
JenneUCSC: i was hurt. real bad. it made me a lot more cold in this game to be honest. i had a lot of scar tissue
JenneUCSC: you were the only one that got thru that though. i couldnt stay emotionless with you. i just adore you. i really truly do. no matter what happened or will happen. i never wanted to hurt you
Love Struck Muse: yeah, just imagine that happening to you two times within a few weeks of each other
JenneUCSC: or do to you what was done to me
Love Struck Muse: maybe it's me... i always build things up to things they aren't and then when the y come crashing down I am crushed.
JenneUCSC: i couldn't ever tell you everything. i just couldnt and still play this game effectively. i made choices to get myself further in this game. and i realized that people may be hurt. but the friendships i made were never faked. i was always real with you. i was never playing you. not ever. i never lied to you to the best of my knowledge. except when i denied the alliance when you had asked. i really felt like i was trying to balance everything. keep them happy and keep you happy. and keep everyone happy. you have no idea how exhausting keeping everyone happy can be
Love Struck Muse: no, trust me I can..that's the story of my life
JenneUCSC: :-)
JenneUCSC: i am a nice person i swear
JenneUCSC: i am not malicious
Love Struck Muse: I know.
Love Struck Muse: I still love ya
JenneUCSC: i barely lied in this game. i never said a bad word about anyone
JenneUCSC: i've tried to be good
JenneUCSC: *pouts*
JenneUCSC: i have a really big heart. and i care about people a lot. i hope you really feel that.
Love Struck Muse: I know, I know... but that still doesn't mean I don't feel hurt and betrayed.
JenneUCSC: i know you feel like that now. i expect that. but will you forever?
Love Struck Muse: No... if there's one thing I've learned in my life so far it's not to hold grudges or hate anyone. It just takes too much energy and I could focus it elsewhere and I have been successful with that thus far.
JenneUCSC: this is a game. thats how i viewed it. i will show you all my confessionals once this game is over. you'll see how much i cared about you this whole time. i really hope we can be friends after all this. i dont want this to stain the friendship that we formed. cause i really tried to separate my emtions and friendships from how i played the game. i just kept them separated this whole game
JenneUCSC: i even had a name for it, jenne and the not-jenne
JenneUCSC: i had to separate the two in order to play this game
JenneUCSC: otherwise i would have been voted out a long time ago
Love Struck Muse: Yes... same here. Although, sometimes I let my emotions rule such as not voting for Kelley.
JenneUCSC: kelley and ryan were the two people i wanted gone the most in this game
Love Struck Muse: The person I want gone the most is still in the game and most likely going to beat me.
JenneUCSC: gracie?
Love Struck Muse: no, kyle
JenneUCSC: really?
JenneUCSC: i had no idea you felt like that about him
Love Struck Muse: He always gave me this air of superiority. Like since I was young I was not deserving or something.
JenneUCSC: the teen beat comment at TC caught my eye
JenneUCSC: or IC
JenneUCSC: you were never going this TC. it was always gonna be kyle or lucas
JenneUCSC: i was leaning to lucas cause he was so damn good in challenges it scared me
JenneUCSC: taylor sux at em
Love Struck Muse: Yeah, that among others. If he even took the time to get to know me he'd know that I'm not some vapid teenage girl obsessed with boyfriends.
JenneUCSC: kyle is alright
Love Struck Muse: yeah, Lucas is good at challenges but really a lot of that has been luck.
Love Struck Muse: I mentioned to him that I knew of a site where you could enter in an anagram and I was like I wish I could find the link and then he got all those words so I'm thinking he found it.
JenneUCSC: so tomorrow, you want kyle gone?
Love Struck Muse: yes
JenneUCSC: i still feel more threatened by lucas than kyle goin into the final stretch of this game
Love Struck Muse: the final stretch of the game is mainly about relationships... and I just don't think Lucas has anyone to back him.
JenneUCSC: i was scared he could immunity his way to the f2
JenneUCSC: he won that first one at the beginning of the game and like 3 individual ones already

[Jenne]

Love Struck Muse: The one he won with the voting thing... it was obvious some of the guys discussed that vote. Then the last one he won was by chance that we all screwed up. lol
JenneUCSC: very good points
Love Struck Muse: if kyle stays... I know I'd be voted out at the final 5. If Lucas stays, I know people will still want to vote him out for the reasons you already said. My goal in both games was final 4 and I fell short by one spot in the last one... if that happens again, I don't even want to think about it.
JenneUCSC: what if lucas won immun after this though? if lucas went tonight. why not kyle next? chances of him being immune is less than lucas being immune
Love Struck Muse: I don't know about that. I think my statistics would argue against that.. lol. We all have the same shot, but the thing is if Kyle is voted out I would have a better shot of staying next time because i'd just have to worry about 1 person winning immunity. If Lucas was voted out, I'd have to worry about anyone winning it but myself.
JenneUCSC: i need dinner :-( i'm emotional and hungry
JenneUCSC: i feel drained
Love Struck Muse: same... I feel very tired
JenneUCSC: *sighs* well i want kyle and lucas gone at the next TCs. the order is of less importance. will you be around tomorrow at all to talk bout it?
JenneUCSC: cause i need to do hw and eat dinner
JenneUCSC: im is just killing me right now
Love Struck Muse: yeah, I'll be on about 6:30 ish I think
JenneUCSC: your time?
Love Struck Muse: yes
JenneUCSC: k, im at work then
Love Struck Muse: I'll be on 6:30-9 lol
Love Struck Muse: in and out
JenneUCSC: i get to work round 3:30 (6:30 your time) and will be there till 5:30 (8:30 your time)
JenneUCSC: we'll work this all out
Love Struck Muse: k, will you be on for tc?
JenneUCSC: never on TH , in class
JenneUCSC: its harsh, i wish karen would change it now that there arent many of us left
Love Struck Muse: Yeah, I could really make it any day but Wednesdays. And they would always have to be around 9 or 9:30
JenneUCSC: i think i am the only one on pst
JenneUCSC: time difference throws me for everything
Love Struck Muse: I'm pretty sure you are
JenneUCSC: the lone west coaster :-(
Love Struck Muse: the lucky one. i wish i lived in california
JenneUCSC: come here for college!
JenneUCSC: you've applied yet?
Love Struck Muse: Yep... all east coast schools and only a few not in NH
JenneUCSC: why no cali?
JenneUCSC: i think i knew someone who went to a NH school. i dont remember any names though
Love Struck Muse: My parents wouldn't like me to go that far. Out of state schools cost more money. I did get a few scholarships and I still haven't heard back but right now my grandpa is struggling with cancer and I couldn't leave him... at least not go too far.
JenneUCSC: completly understood. i was very close with my grandma. when she was dying we went every weekend to be with her
Love Struck Muse: Yeah... I just want to be around in case something happens. Right now, he's struggling but he has a lot of doctor friends and they all say he'll recover from it.
JenneUCSC: he must have the *good* kind of cancer if there is such a thing
Love Struck Muse: you could say that... tonsil cancer. So obviously they can remove your tonsils and you will be fine. I mean I don't have mine anymore but they did that already. It hasn't spread from what I know but they couldn't remove all of the tonsil.
JenneUCSC: surgery sux
JenneUCSC: i put a knife thru my hand last yr
JenneUCSC: had surgery to reattach the nerve
Love Struck Muse: wow, how'd you do that?
JenneUCSC: garden burgers
JenneUCSC: *laughs*
Love Struck Muse: LOL... not even real meat
JenneUCSC: they come two to a pack, frozen
JenneUCSC: i was trying to pry them apart with a knife
JenneUCSC: *idiot*
Love Struck Muse: ouch!
Love Struck Muse: that would hurt like a bitch
Love Struck Muse: sphosting.com/bbsecrecy/ first episode of my bb game is out!
Love Struck Muse: the one where i get nominated unfairly :-)
JenneUCSC: went straight thru. i had an exit wound and everything
Love Struck Muse: damn girl... you must be really strong with a knife!
JenneUCSC: i told ashlee bout it at the beginning of the game and she always thought i was like that girl in that movie
JenneUCSC: that i am blanking on the name
JenneUCSC: grrr
JenneUCSC: *thinks*
JenneUCSC: kill bill!
Love Struck Muse: ohh yep, I love that movie
JenneUCSC: i still dont have full feeling in my right hand pinky
JenneUCSC: doubt you noticed but i never use the ' in words
JenneUCSC: i say cant
JenneUCSC: not can't
JenneUCSC: or im
JenneUCSC: stead of I'm
Love Struck Muse: I did notice that actually
Love Struck Muse: Just thought you liked short-hand lol
JenneUCSC: i am physically disabled

[Jenne]

JenneUCSC: but you dont get good parkn for it
Love Struck Muse: lol, the worst kind
JenneUCSC: *sighs* alas it is my fate
JenneUCSC: happened a week before my only sibling got married too
JenneUCSC: i was moi upsetto
Love Struck Muse: Were you in the wedding?
JenneUCSC: *nods*
JenneUCSC: tride to hide my bandaged hand
JenneUCSC: happened THurs. had surgery on the monday. wedding was that saturday
JenneUCSC: my dad re-bandaged my hand so it would look better for the wedding butreally i was so devastated
Love Struck Muse: aw :-( that sucks... i bet you still looked pretty in your dress though
JenneUCSC: that was the thing! i had been sooo busy with school i had planning on finding an outfit (we could pick out whatever to wear) that last week
JenneUCSC: but i couldnt
JenneUCSC: so i had to wear some regular ole thing. stead of something special
JenneUCSC: added to the devastation
JenneUCSC: wanna see a pic fromthe wedding?
Love Struck Muse: sure
JenneUCSC: my hand is hidden, i did it on purpose for the pics
Love Struck Muse: Understandably
JenneUCSC wants to directly connect.
Love Struck Muse is now directly connected.
JenneUCSC wants to send file C:\Documents and Settings\JenneL\My Documents\My Pictures\2004\juneandjuly\BryAl Wedding\aljenbry1.jpg.
Love Struck Muse: you know you can just click on the mountain and get the picture that way right?
JenneUCSC: really?
Love Struck Muse: like find it in your files and then click on it and it will send
Love Struck Muse: yep!
JenneUCSC:
Love Struck Muse: aw... I love that skirt though!
JenneUCSC: i did too
Love Struck Muse: You look so different without that wig on! lol do you have any others?
JenneUCSC: but for a wedding?
Love Struck Muse: true :-( but you look cute
JenneUCSC: thank you!
JenneUCSC: others from wedding or just others?
JenneUCSC: here's a face one
Love Struck Muse: just anything... you said you were going to show me one of you in your costume from that play you did
JenneUCSC:
Love Struck Muse: Aww... you are so cute! I love that pic
JenneUCSC: i took that one night when i was bored
JenneUCSC: erik was out of town
Love Struck Muse: you have really pretty brown eyes
JenneUCSC: *curtsies*
Love Struck Muse: let me see here... I think I have a few more recent pix of myself
JenneUCSC: my eyes are weird colored, look brown but check it
Love Struck Muse: I'm not actually drunk in this pic either. LOL
Love Struck Muse: are they mustard colored?
JenneUCSC: i need to shrink it, too big
Love Struck Muse: this was the weekend before valetine's... i of course ran in to an ex-boyfriend. it's kind of cute how we met... he works for my grandpa and goes to another school. now he's in college though but it was like a movie... the guy working for the girl's grandpa. i thought so at least. lol
Love Struck Muse: although, I found out recently he said we never actually "dated" in the traditional sense since he never asked me out or anything like that.
Love Struck Muse: yet we spent almost everyday of the summer together, did all the stuff people in relationships do, said I love you to each other... but ya know, we never dated. Pfft, I hate boys sometimes.
JenneUCSC:
JenneUCSC: see weird?
Love Struck Muse: whoa
Love Struck Muse: that's weird but it's really pretty
JenneUCSC: lmao
JenneUCSC: and um boys suck, thats all i have to say bout the bf/ non-bf thing
Love Struck Muse: They do. I swear the one I'm VERY interested in right now has no interest in girls (or guys! lol). I NEVER get a crush on people I go to high school with. My high school sucks for the most part but this is the first guy I've found that I just want to date so badly and he doesn't even feel anything close to that for me I think.
Love Struck Muse: you think it would be obvious to him - since I show up at every open-mic night he performs at to watch him! lol
JenneUCSC: i refused to date HS boys
JenneUCSC: i never thought they were worthy of my attention
Love Struck Muse: I've only had 2 relationships... both with people in high school.
JenneUCSC: i didnt have my first bf till college
JenneUCSC: i was a lil scared of boys when i was younger
JenneUCSC: it was easier for me to just get drunk
Love Struck Muse: LOL
Love Struck Muse: I have always gotten along well with guys... as friends but those friends always developed crushes on me and eventually the friendship would end because the guys I liked were never my friends.
JenneUCSC: hard being so desirable
JenneUCSC: lol
JenneUCSC: thats how it is though
JenneUCSC: guy likes girl
JenneUCSC: girl likes other guy
JenneUCSC: who likes other girl
Love Struck Muse: LOL... no no, it's always the shy/brainy guys that like me
JenneUCSC: who l
JenneUCSC: i like shy/brainy guys
JenneUCSC:
Love Struck Muse: I guess I worded that wrong cause I do too... they were... boring mama's boys
JenneUCSC: oh, nah, ditch em!
Love Struck Muse: They guy I like now is shy and brainy... my first boyfriend was extremely smart but he had a lot of problems and my second boyfriend was completely opposite of my other one. very outgoing, sort of smart but more street smarts than book, and super athletic
JenneUCSC: its hard. cause there is so much a girl wants in a guy and so much a guy wants in a girl, that when those two people line up and fit , its just rare
JenneUCSC: thats why love is so special
Love Struck Muse: it makes you wonder how some couples found each other and if they are just settling
Love Struck Muse: a lot of my friend's parents are divorced but i can't help but believe in love seeing my parents.
JenneUCSC: i had a great example in my parents. i wont settle cause i know what the real thing is
JenneUCSC: and thats what im goin for
JenneUCSC: sounds like we are the same there
Love Struck Muse: Yep! If I have a relationship even close to my parents I'd be so lucky
Love Struck Muse: same with my grandparents too... they're so cute together

[Jenne]

JenneUCSC: i didnt get the grandparents part. but my mom and dad have known each other since they were 14 and 15 and have a great love story
Love Struck Muse: aw cute!
JenneUCSC: makes me all warm and fuzzy
Love Struck Muse: same with my parents! they met in college though
Love Struck Muse: when they met though, my mom was dating someone else... scandalous! lol
JenneUCSC: ok, my puter keeps freezing on me and its super annoying. i need to reboot
JenneUCSC: will you still be here in a sec?
Love Struck Muse: Ok, I probably won't be here though
Love Struck Muse: in a sec... yeah lol
Love Struck Muse: but I have to go soon
JenneUCSC: ok, brb

[Jenne]

Kdadams76: hey you!
JenneUCSC: hi honey
Kdadams76: how are you??
JenneUCSC: ellie knows about our alliance
JenneUCSC: i'm upset
JenneUCSC: she's crying
JenneUCSC: i'm crying
JenneUCSC: i';m sad
Kdadams76: well how could she not know by now?
Kdadams76: you're not going to cave into her are you?
JenneUCSC: what do you mean?
JenneUCSC: what is there to cave to?
Kdadams76: i know its sad...but don't you think it would've been worse when she's voted out?
Kdadams76: everything ok?
JenneUCSC: i guess so
JenneUCSC: i suck butt
Kdadams76: no you don't.....but i'm sorry you feel bad
Kdadams76: i can empathize...i really can
JenneUCSC: i really care about her. like how i care about you. if this was happening withyou, you know iw ould be balling
JenneUCSC: this game is hard
Kdadams76: I know it
Kdadams76: I really cared about Ryan
Kdadams76: is this changing our plans?
JenneUCSC: no its not
JenneUCSC: of course it isnt
JenneUCSC: i'm not upset thats all
Kdadams76: if is was there you know i'd hug you
JenneUCSC: be really nice to have someones arms wrapped round me right now
Kdadams76: awww
Kdadams76: so how have you been able to talk to her?
JenneUCSC: she is just hurt
JenneUCSC: and i feel awful for being deceptive
JenneUCSC: i never lied to her except when i had to deny the alliance when ryan told her
JenneUCSC: but i was still deceptive
Kdadams76: yeah...that has to happen though if you have to keep the alliance under wraps
Kdadams76: i know it really does suck
Kdadams76: i'm sorry, friend Jenne
JenneUCSC: maybe ya'll should jsut vote my ass off tomorrow! :-(
Kdadams76: ummmm
Kdadams76: thats not happening
Kdadams76: you haven't done anything wrong
Kdadams76: Ellie signed up for this game knowing about it just like all the rest of us
Kdadams76: it was her fault that she hasn't tried to get to know more people
Kdadams76: i tried to talk to her a lot, and it never worked
JenneUCSC: :-( i know, hard choices now
JenneUCSC: what happens when you go to the end iwth people you like
JenneUCSC: every TC is like this!
Kdadams76: if we get to final 4 with you, me, taylor, and gracie....i'm just rolling with the flow
Kdadams76: that to me is like winning the game
JenneUCSC: the thought of writing anyones name down makes me nautious
Kdadams76: yeah me too....but it's inevitable, you know?
JenneUCSC: i got queasy with the annette vote
JenneUCSC: and im WAY closer with everyone left than i was with her
Kdadams76: yeah me too
Kdadams76: do you want to meet Gracie and I for ice cream at the Marble Slab?
JenneUCSC: i would LOVE some ice cream
Kdadams76: meet us in 10
JenneUCSC: lol
Kdadams76: i would so love that!
JenneUCSC: need dinner!
Kdadams76: you feeling better?
JenneUCSC: not really
JenneUCSC: need dinner and have hw up the wazoo
Kdadams76: ok...well i hope you feel better
JenneUCSC: i'll be fine. i signed up for this game. and i'm playing it. even if i dont like it all.
Kdadams76: yeah
Kdadams76: have you talked to Taylor at all lately?
JenneUCSC: earlier today
JenneUCSC: we mud wrestled
Kdadams76: fun!
Kdadams76: he's so different to me lately
JenneUCSC: he hasnt been around much and like that with everyone i think
Kdadams76: i bet i annoy the heck out of him....:-\
JenneUCSC: why would you ever say that?
Kdadams76: becuase i went through a stage where i questioned him a lot
Kdadams76: and the other day i asked if his profile pic was really him
Kdadams76: if i were him i'd be annoyed too
JenneUCSC: just cause you ask questions?
JenneUCSC: did he tell you it was him?
Kdadams76: yeah
JenneUCSC: he is acting weird
JenneUCSC: he's goin out of town till sunday
Kdadams76: so he won't be here tomorrow?
JenneUCSC: dont think so
Kdadams76: is he talking to you now?
JenneUCSC: nope
JenneUCSC: i just talked to him when i was at work
Kdadams76: well...he did say he was packin a lot
JenneUCSC: my buddy list says he is idle
Kdadams76: mine too
Kdadams76: he was here then went away
JenneUCSC: i can call him and wake him up!
Kdadams76: LOL
Kdadams76: no don't do that
JenneUCSC: i think he already sent his vote in
Kdadams76: ok
Kdadams76: well i hope everythings ok with him
JenneUCSC: he's been out of it. there was drama with the soc game lately too
Kdadams76: really? how?
JenneUCSC: do you know who mario lanza is?
JenneUCSC: he used to write for S-C
Kdadams76: have no idea
JenneUCSC: well he writes an article for the socotra game now
JenneUCSC: really reamed a couple of cast members in his latest article
JenneUCSC: and one of em is in an uproar over it
JenneUCSC: really stupid really
Kdadams76: wow
Kdadams76: that is kind of dumb
JenneUCSC: it is soooo dumb
JenneUCSC: but you have no idea what this girl is like
JenneUCSC: oh wait, actually did you read the first holidays?
JenneUCSC: she was in it
Kdadams76: which one....shauna?
JenneUCSC: um, she didnt use her real name
JenneUCSC: so i dunno
JenneUCSC: lemme check
JenneUCSC: shauna, yep
Kdadams76: that's what i thought...i knew she was in socotra
JenneUCSC: her and a girl in socotra met and fell in love
JenneUCSC: but the girl was only 17
JenneUCSC: so she got reamed for it
Kdadams76: lessy's?
JenneUCSC: and is suppppper pissed now
JenneUCSC: she wAS married to a man at the time
Kdadams76: yikes that's crazy
JenneUCSC: toldja
JenneUCSC: DRAMA
Kdadams76: that is a lot of drama
JenneUCSC: yes and if we do all stars she is all ours to deal iwth!
Kdadams76: we'll put her in her place....lol
JenneUCSC: i used to fuck with her in the daily reports
JenneUCSC: cause thats what i did for that game
JenneUCSC: the bitch work as i called it
JenneUCSC: you have never seen a grown woman more upset over a few days of firewood getting wet
JenneUCSC: i swear to you now!
Kdadams76: LOL
Kdadams76: there was a lot of gay people in that first game
JenneUCSC: i guess so, i never read it
Kdadams76: yeah i read the whole thing....and now shauna left her husband for a 17 year old girl?
JenneUCSC: she is 18 now, not sure status of her marriage
Kdadams76: that's just crazy to me
JenneUCSC: agreed
Kdadams76: so basically this shauna got blasted for that in an article and taylor is taking the heat for it?
JenneUCSC: well she wants nothing to do with the game
JenneUCSC: and was making a big stink
Kdadams76: will you play in all stars?
JenneUCSC: i dont think so actually
Kdadams76: i will be sad
Kdadams76: but i understand
JenneUCSC: i just dont think i could go thru this again
Kdadams76: i understand
Kdadams76: i just want to play against those cutthroats and put em in their places....LOL
Kdadams76: naa not really
JenneUCSC: i cant handle it
Kdadams76: i just get too attatched to people
JenneUCSC: preaching to the choir
Kdadams76: well...at least in this game...i've gotten attatched to the right people
JenneUCSC: :-) *hugs*
Kdadams76: hey....so tell me about this big switch to Lucas even before Ellie snatched up that immunity
JenneUCSC: defrosting dinner hang on and we'll discuss
Kdadams76: ok
JenneUCSC: yah, so it was after i talked to you on sunday night i think
JenneUCSC: you made me think bout everything
JenneUCSC: and though i really didnt want to think bout breakin our alliance, you starting the wheels in my brain turning
JenneUCSC: and so i talked to gracie and taylor
JenneUCSC: we hadnt made up our mind or anything but once ellie won it solidified it. cause well, who else would it be?
Kdadams76: right
JenneUCSC: plus we knew it would make you happy
JenneUCSC: even if i am realllllly sad to be doin it
Kdadams76: well i hope i haven't come across as a spoiled brat about it
JenneUCSC: you and lucas were gonna blow at some point. i think everyone knew it was inevitable. no alliance stays solid forever
Kdadams76: i wouldn't have except that he turned on me the first chance he got
Kdadams76: and i'd be more forgiving if i hdan't have stood up for him 3 TC's in a row
Kdadams76: AND sacrificed a friend for him
JenneUCSC: well you want to know how he felt like his pov?
JenneUCSC: why he had a problem with you
Kdadams76: yeah i want to know
JenneUCSC: he felt like you were willing to vote him off when tony left
JenneUCSC: your relationship never was the same after that vote
JenneUCSC: cause he felt betrayed by you over that
Kdadams76: that which he wasn't voted out for....and i confrotned him about my unsureties for him
Kdadams76: i was honest and told him why i was unsure and we cleared it
Kdadams76: so i thought
JenneUCSC: brb, puter is freezing. making it impossible to talk

[Jenne]

JenneUCSC: and back!
JenneUCSC: anyways, that is why though. he felt like you were willing to vote him off. and he never recovered from that
JenneUCSC: despite what anyone said
Kdadams76: it's funny though...cuase i didn't vote him off and even confronted him before the TC about why i was unsure about him
Kdadams76: i thought we had gotten it all clear
Kdadams76: i was fine with him after that
Kdadams76: honestly
JenneUCSC: i know
JenneUCSC: but if there is anything i know about lucas, is he is an emotional guy
Kdadams76: heck yes he is
Kdadams76: well..i need to be going to bed
Kdadams76: i'm glad i got to talk to you...seems like it's been a while!
JenneUCSC: life!
JenneUCSC: good talkn though! sleep tight!
JenneUCSC: *kisses cheek*
Kdadams76: awwww
Kdadams76: that was too sweet
Kdadams76: *kisses hand*
Kdadams76: night friend!
JenneUCSC:
JenneUCSC: that was hot!
Kdadams76: awww
Kdadams76: sweet dreams, Jenne Sue
JenneUCSC: night kinky...
JenneUCSC: i forgot the rest
JenneUCSC: *shrugs*
Kdadams76: virgin
Kdadams76: ha!
JenneUCSC: :-P

[Jenne]

JenneUCSC: so how did your dad manage to steal her?
Love Struck Muse: Well, the guy she was dating was a complete jerk. He played hockey with my dad. My dad and mom both argue about when they actually met. My dad says he was introduced to my mom and she kind of blew him off when she was dating his "friend"... and later on they met when they had a class together, cause they had similar majors, and they worked together on something and ever since have been together.
Love Struck Muse: and btw, the guy my mom was dated is actually friends with my mom's dad, weird huh?
Love Struck Muse: dating* i cant' type
JenneUCSC: my folks had a similiar route
JenneUCSC: my mom was dating this guy jeff
JenneUCSC: who lived in my dad's neighborhood, he didnt like him
Love Struck Muse: lol wow... that is weird. it's kind of a parallel
JenneUCSC: my mom belonged to a jewish club and my dad's mom was her leader
JenneUCSC: they had a dance
JenneUCSC: that my dad was at
JenneUCSC: but not jeff
JenneUCSC: my dad told my mom jeff had asked him to look out for her, and danced with her all night!
JenneUCSC: but they didnt actually date till a yr later i think
JenneUCSC: jeff was a jerk too!
JenneUCSC: BUT he is the guy who invented video dating
JenneUCSC: odd as it is
Love Struck Muse: LOL, so is he rich?
JenneUCSC: probally
JenneUCSC: but lonely
JenneUCSC: hah!
Love Struck Muse: Very lonely... and looking for love online!
JenneUCSC: he went on the dating show a lot in the 70s
JenneUCSC: my mom said like 3X
JenneUCSC: where he got the idea no doubt
Love Struck Muse: pathetic!!
Love Struck Muse: I unfortunately know all about my mom's ex... he ended up working for my Grandpa. He married someone and a few years ago they went through this vicious divorce. So it's kind of sad cause they had two kids... but they were all very immature.. esp the dad.
JenneUCSC: man, keep it in the family!
JenneUCSC: small town?
Love Struck Muse: LOL... I dunno why that happened. They live in Nashua which is the second biggest city in New Hampshire.
JenneUCSC: you know until tonight i didnt even know you lived in NH
Love Struck Muse: LOL
Love Struck Muse: Did you know I was from the New England area?
JenneUCSC: yes!
JenneUCSC: somewhere in that area
JenneUCSC: i knew you werent in the south and were of the east coast time zone
Love Struck Muse: I live in Northwestern NH... closer to Vermont than any other state.
JenneUCSC: where is bates and bowdin?
JenneUCSC: arent they up there?
JenneUCSC: or is that maine
Love Struck Muse: bates is in maine
Love Struck Muse: Lewiston, Maine
Love Struck Muse: and Bowdin is in Massachusetts I think lol
Love Struck Muse: oh no, they're both in Maine
Love Struck Muse: I've been to Bates before on a youth group trip
JenneUCSC: i liked those schools when i read about them
JenneUCSC: but i didnt think bout the cold factor
Love Struck Muse: I live in the White Mountains... they don't call them white for nothing. During the winter, it snows just about every week
Love Struck Muse: same for most of the area around here
JenneUCSC: dont you freeze?
Love Struck Muse: I've grown up here so I'm completely used to it
JenneUCSC: not like you have insolation, you are tiny
Love Struck Muse: lol, well, you need a good winter coat and a car with great heat
Love Struck Muse: my old car barely had heat... it took about 10 minutes for it to finally warm up
JenneUCSC: did you start it 10mins before you went anywhere?
Love Struck Muse: No.. my brother did that or he didn't get a ride to school.
Love Struck Muse: Or at least that's what I told him would happen lol
JenneUCSC: niiice!
JenneUCSC: excellent technique
Love Struck Muse: He liked it of course... he still can't drive so I have to cart his ass everywhere he wants.
JenneUCSC: i was the youngest, i was the carted
Love Struck Muse: I had to drive him a few hours away before to some hockey thing
Love Struck Muse: lucky!
JenneUCSC: he cant take the bus?
JenneUCSC: lol
Love Struck Muse: Are you kidding? I always refused to take the bus too. No one in high school likes riding the bus! lol
JenneUCSC: i shouldnt talk
Love Struck Muse: plus we'd have to get up so early. i think we used to have to wait an hour to get to school
JenneUCSC: i refused to , told me mom i'd ditch if i had to take the bus
JenneUCSC: it was like a fate worse than death
Love Struck Muse: see!
Love Struck Muse: Yep... something about it
JenneUCSC: isnt it late for you to be up on a school night?
JenneUCSC: <---always the mom
Love Struck Muse: Yeah, the night before this though I didn't get much sleep so I took a nap today after school
Love Struck Muse: and now I'm wide awake
JenneUCSC: i ve done that many times
Love Struck Muse: I should just jug some nyquil cause I can already guarantee this cycle will continue till friday
Love Struck Muse: that's why I don't nap usually :-\
JenneUCSC: well i was supposed to come home, eat dinner and do hw
Love Struck Muse: lol, how'd that go for ya?
JenneUCSC: and lets see, im just eating dinner now
JenneUCSC: and ive been talking to you for hrs
JenneUCSC: so not so well
JenneUCSC: in the hw depart. anyways
Love Struck Muse: lol... I'm actually multi-tasking by reviewing notecards at the same time... It can be done! Depends on what homework you have
JenneUCSC: math
JenneUCSC: :-(
JenneUCSC: i gave up doin my psych and soc reading
Love Struck Muse: I don't like math :-( and you can't do that while talking online
JenneUCSC: nope
JenneUCSC: unless someone is dull and takes forever to resond
Love Struck Muse: True... that's not me though, right?? haha
JenneUCSC: if it were, i wouldnt have said it
JenneUCSC: :-P
Love Struck Muse: I always found Taylor like that... but apparently you, him, and gracie are close
Love Struck Muse: so he must take time to crack open
JenneUCSC: i dont know if its that
JenneUCSC: he always feels distracted
Love Struck Muse: what do you mean?
JenneUCSC: i'll say something
JenneUCSC: he wont respond
JenneUCSC: i'll be like "taylor?"
JenneUCSC: TAYLOR?
JenneUCSC: TAYLOR???
JenneUCSC: taylor
Love Struck Muse: lol, that's how i feel sometimes
Love Struck Muse: WAKE UP!!!
Love Struck Muse: lol
JenneUCSC: and he'll come back and be like "what, im here"
JenneUCSC: *rolls eyes*
Love Struck Muse: lol I know... he does that for me.
Love Struck Muse: That's why I was surprised you were so tight
JenneUCSC: the thing was, i knew from the beginning of this game, being able to talk to both tribes was HUGE
JenneUCSC: anyone who didnt take that opportunity is regretting it now
JenneUCSC: cause it was key
Love Struck Muse: all the guys i talked to are gone
JenneUCSC: all the guys i talked to are the last ones here
JenneUCSC: taylor, kyle, lucas, and steve
JenneUCSC: 4 guys i liked
Love Struck Muse: I talked to Ryan, Mitch, and Steve the most
JenneUCSC: mitch killed me with all his "love yahs"
JenneUCSC: he flipped out on me
JenneUCSC: i had to go first or i would have gone mad
JenneUCSC: *he
Love Struck Muse: He wasn't that bad with me
Love Struck Muse: I think he was laying it on too thick with you and some of the others
JenneUCSC: he really was, and then he wanted to call me and it was just icky
JenneUCSC: he wouldnt leave me alone
Love Struck Muse: I don't think he would have been like that with me - since I'm like the youngest one in the game. I'm sure with a 20 something though he was all over it! lol
JenneUCSC: i was just glad to leave that behind
JenneUCSC: my problems with ryan stemmed from that
Love Struck Muse: I always liked Ryan but he stopped talking to me sometime in the middle and then picked up again when he was in trouble
Love Struck Muse: and warned me about this alliance of Gracie, Jenne, Lucas, Taylor, and Kyle... LOL
JenneUCSC: i know!
JenneUCSC: you really scared me when you told me too!
JenneUCSC: lol
Love Struck Muse: I did believe him... at least with Gracie. I always kept asking you if she was with them!
Love Struck Muse: I just knew she was for some reason
JenneUCSC: and i kept defending her
JenneUCSC: cause i knew she was with me
Love Struck Muse: I just know a guy will win this game though.
JenneUCSC: oh hell no!
Love Struck Muse: and I really think it's going to be Taylor
JenneUCSC: i worked to damn hard this entire game to let one of em slip by
Love Struck Muse: of all the guys! lol
JenneUCSC: i knew you would figure out the alliance was real sooner or later. specially when you were in the f6 with all us
JenneUCSC: but alliances are made and broken in this game like they are nothing
JenneUCSC: why i never made a real one iwth you
JenneUCSC: stronger bond w/o it
Love Struck Muse: i made comments in my journal about how it was suspicious that anytime someone wanted kyle gone someone else went
Love Struck Muse: btw, was it a lie that steph wanted gracie out?
JenneUCSC: as far as i know, no it wasnt
JenneUCSC: i thought that at first
Love Struck Muse: hm, weird... cause she never even suggested that to me
Love Struck Muse: he*
JenneUCSC: only time i doubted gracie in this game
JenneUCSC: cause i wasnt sure if that was true or not
JenneUCSC: but i believe it was
JenneUCSC: steph said "luv yah" to me too
JenneUCSC: *rolls eyes*
Love Struck Muse: so it was steve who voted for lucas?
Love Struck Muse: lol.. she called me honey
JenneUCSC: ok see thats where my issue came with annette
JenneUCSC: she lied to me bout the lucas vote