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[Jenne]

JenneUCSC: i want you to know how much our talk last night effected me. it meant a lot to me that you were willing to talk to me about everything. i'm voting for kyle tonight
Love Struck Muse: aw thanks jenne... If you want to vote for Lucas, I'll understand
JenneUCSC: nope, my mind is made up
JenneUCSC: gracie is voting for kyle too
JenneUCSC: i talked to lucas last night. talked to him bout my feelings and this game and all that. i care about him a lot. i dont want him to leave
Love Struck Muse: aw, yay... will kyle/taylor be pissed?
JenneUCSC: of course
JenneUCSC: but i want to do what is right
JenneUCSC: i have to vote a friend out tonight. no way around it
JenneUCSC: i threw strategy out though. i'm voting for the sake of my heart
JenneUCSC: i just wish i could be there. i dont like having to do this to a friend behind their back
JenneUCSC: feels shady
Love Struck Muse: you could write him a letter?
JenneUCSC: i was gonna talk to him on im if i could, if not i was gonna send him a pm
JenneUCSC: between you and lucas i was all tears last night. it was quite the emotional evening
Love Struck Muse: did you at least sleep well? i slept like a baby. i was drained emotionally.
JenneUCSC: i slept ok, not great. didn tget nuff thats for sure
JenneUCSC: i had to do math hw after i talked to you guys still
JenneUCSC: and had class this morning
JenneUCSC: and the man needed attention too
Love Struck Muse: LOL, how's Erik doing anyways?
JenneUCSC: well after being pissed at him for awhile i finally drudged up enough maturity to talk with him bout it all
JenneUCSC: friday night before i left for my folks'
JenneUCSC: it was REALLY good
JenneUCSC: so we are doin a lot better
JenneUCSC: he knows i need him to change
Love Struck Muse: do you think he can change that aspect of his personality... about not having many goals?
JenneUCSC: not sure, but at least he knows what i need. so if he isnt able to do it, he will at least understand why i cant be with him
JenneUCSC: i cant change someone. but i can be honest about my needs
JenneUCSC: and being honest about my feelings and everything was something i had to do
JenneUCSC: cause i wasnt being fair to him by being pissy all the time
Love Struck Muse: haha... that's a good way of putting it. Girls always think that the guy will somehow realize what their problem is but I think that would be something hard to overcome.
JenneUCSC: it is, if he wants to be with me, he will have to work hard. but its up to him
JenneUCSC: i hate when people expect you to read their mind
JenneUCSC: i am an effective communicator and i use that skill to better my relationships
JenneUCSC: if you keep being mad at someone for something they dont even know they are doing...not fair. BUT if they know, and STILL do it, then you have the right to be even more MAD
JenneUCSC: its like an entitlement for your anger
JenneUCSC: its justified then
JenneUCSC: lol
Love Struck Muse: LOL... I agree actually. I have a lot of friends who act like that with me. They will be really quiet with me and give me little answers and then later on I find out from someone else they are mad at me for some childish reason.
JenneUCSC: exactly. when if they had just come to you, let you know what you did that bothered them, you wouldnt do it ever again. but if you dont know, you cant change for the better
JenneUCSC: the reason i was so pissed at erik last week when he didnt come home or call had more to do with the fact he had done it before and i had been very clear with him i wanted him to call if he wasnt coming home. i was pissed he didnt come home. but i was more pissed that i had talked to him about it before and he STILL did it
Love Struck Muse: What did he say when you brought it up? That he would call?
JenneUCSC: the first time?
Love Struck Muse: No, just recently
JenneUCSC: he cried when we talked friday
JenneUCSC: i luv men who cry
JenneUCSC: vulnerability=sexy
JenneUCSC: he wants to make me happy. he really tries
JenneUCSC: i got home monday night and he had cleaned the whole place. he knows i am a sucker for cleanliness
Love Struck Muse: aww... that's sweet
Love Struck Muse: both the cryng and cleaning
Love Struck Muse: if only men could do more of that we would be better off lol
JenneUCSC: i like to have hand in my relationships
JenneUCSC: he he
Love Struck Muse: Are you at work?
JenneUCSC: yep
JenneUCSC: doin the dinner prep stuff
Love Struck Muse: not much going on today?
JenneUCSC: and school lunches
Love Struck Muse: aw... fun
JenneUCSC: i have to leave in an hr for class
JenneUCSC: today i have a lot of school, not much work
Love Struck Muse: What class is this?
JenneUCSC: tonight is math
JenneUCSC: why i can never be at TH TCs
Love Struck Muse: aw I'm sorry... :-( what level math is it?
JenneUCSC: i talked to karen bout maybe switchn em up if i am still here next week. cause its not right for me to not be there. makes me feels like a shmuck
JenneUCSC: pre-calc
Love Struck Muse: hey I have to grab dinner... I'll see you later!
JenneUCSC: goodluck tonight!
JenneUCSC: bye hon
Love Struck Muse: thanks bye! ttyl
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[Jenne]

Kdadams76: hey there
Kdadams76: yep
JenneUCSC: hi honey!
Kdadams76: how are you?
JenneUCSC: your window was hiding! just saw yah
JenneUCSC: i'm ok. not looking forward to this TC
Kdadams76: do we ever??
JenneUCSC: no!
JenneUCSC: but this is the worst yet
Kdadams76: does he know?
JenneUCSC: no
JenneUCSC: :-( he doesnt
Kdadams76: i'm sure he has to have some idea right?
Kdadams76: well i guess i know who the floating votes will be for
Kdadams76: sigh
JenneUCSC: ellie and lucas are voting for you
Kdadams76: shocker
Kdadams76: can you let me in on why i've been the minority target every tc since the merge?
Kdadams76: have i done something?
JenneUCSC: lol, no you havnt. i dont know why they chose you
Kdadams76: every single one except for steves
Kdadams76: and ryans but still
Kdadams76: its unsettling
Kdadams76: and i've actually made the intiative to get to know everyone
JenneUCSC: well you know lucas's issues. i talked to you botu that last night. and ellie isnt your biggest fan either. so i think that may be the route of it
Kdadams76: i know she doesn't like me...i just wonder why.
Kdadams76: i've always tried to talk to her and get to know her....she has NEVER messaged me
JenneUCSC: comments like the teen beat one i think did it
JenneUCSC: but it went further back
JenneUCSC: she never talked to me about it , i just found out
Kdadams76: oh that was all in fun
Kdadams76: and she laughed it off....but i've never made any other comment like that before
JenneUCSC: i think she felt you felt superior and put on airs. the age-difference thing. i dont think you did it purposefully. more how she took it
JenneUCSC: i dont thinnk its your fault
Kdadams76: yeah...not something i can worry about though
JenneUCSC: i think it was her own issue with the age thing
JenneUCSC: nope
Kdadams76: well....just as long as they are the only 2 votes i get tonight!
JenneUCSC: will you be here in 1/2 hr?
JenneUCSC: i need to get work stuff done, then ill have 1/2 to talk before i leave for class
Kdadams76: i'll be watching survivor then
JenneUCSC: blegh!
Kdadams76: but those are the only 2 votes i'm getting right?
JenneUCSC: we need to talk
Kdadams76: Jenne
Kdadams76: what are you trying to tell me
JenneUCSC: that i have to make a very hard decision tonight. one i dont want to make.
JenneUCSC: i talked to ellie for a long time last night
JenneUCSC: and lucas too
Kdadams76: and you're going to vote for me
JenneUCSC: and they broke me
JenneUCSC: i am kyle
Kdadams76: jenne i can't belive this
Kdadams76: i cannot believe this
Kdadams76: you broke our alliance
JenneUCSC: i needed you to know
Kdadams76: you broke it like you PROMISED you wouldn't
JenneUCSC: and you can do what you want with that. i was planning on voting for lucas this whole time
JenneUCSC: but i just dont feel i can do it
Kdadams76: why did you let him change you
JenneUCSC: and i dont want to vote for you
Kdadams76: why?
JenneUCSC: i want to self-vote to be honest
Kdadams76: i can't belive you
JenneUCSC: but i had to make a decision.
Kdadams76: i can't
Kdadams76: did taylor vote me too?
JenneUCSC: no he didnt
Kdadams76: i can't believe you jenne
JenneUCSC: i'm not proud of myself right now
Kdadams76: i can't believe you
JenneUCSC: cause i care about you more than you probally realize
JenneUCSC: thats why i'm telling you this now
Kdadams76: what has lucas got that you have to keep him over me?
JenneUCSC: cause i cant be there tonight
JenneUCSC: and you deserve to hear it from me
JenneUCSC: because i am your friend. and i care about you. and i hate that im doing this
Kdadams76: obviously not
Kdadams76: you picked lucas
Kdadams76: LUCAS of all people
Kdadams76: i should have known from the start
JenneUCSC: i hope you will understand why i am doing this once this is all over
JenneUCSC: i know you cant now
Kdadams76: no i don't
Kdadams76: and i won't
Kdadams76: what made you change?
Kdadams76: just how good with words is he?
JenneUCSC: they had me in tears. both of them
Kdadams76: because they were playing a game that you had already won
Kdadams76: and you let them beat you
JenneUCSC: how had i won?
JenneUCSC: im the biggest loser here
JenneUCSC: i cared about too many people
JenneUCSC: and set myself up to be an emotional sobby snot nosed mess
Kdadams76: i knew you were going to cave last night
Kdadams76: i knew it
JenneUCSC: i wasnt goin to at that point
JenneUCSC: maybe you knew better than i did
Kdadams76: but you did
Kdadams76: and i get to be sacrificed because of it
JenneUCSC: you have the allstar
Kdadams76: no i don't
JenneUCSC: i'm not playing this game ever again
Kdadams76: it's top 5
JenneUCSC: its not soemthing i want to put myself thru again
JenneUCSC: you meet great people, you care about them, then you screw or get screwed
Kdadams76: why don't you stick to you guns and keep your 4 alliance
JenneUCSC: its sux
Kdadams76: i knew i should't have trusted you
Kdadams76: i knew it
JenneUCSC: kyle i understand why you are hurt
JenneUCSC: adn that you want me to hurt right now too
JenneUCSC: trust me i hurt so bad
JenneUCSC: cause i am crying right now
JenneUCSC: whether you trust that or not
Kdadams76: but Lucas over me
Kdadams76: WHY?

JenneUCSC: when we meet when this game is over, if you still want to be my friend. i have a lot to tell you
Kdadams76: i want to know now
Kdadams76: the least you can do is show me that decency
JenneUCSC: i cant right now. i know you dont undertand. but i just cant .
Kdadams76: its not like i'm out of the game yet
Kdadams76: what Lucas is your boyfriend or something?
Kdadams76: you've known him as long as you've known taylor?
JenneUCSC: lucas and jamie are together. you know that
Kdadams76: so what does that have to do with me?
JenneUCSC: i have always been sincere with you. i have loved playing this game with you.
JenneUCSC: nothing was ever fake or a lie
JenneUCSC: this is a decision i am making in a game
JenneUCSC: and has nothing to do with how i feel about you
JenneUCSC: i hope you can let yourself feel that
JenneUCSC: because i really mean it
JenneUCSC: i hope this isnt the end of us
Kdadams76: you need to just tell me how in the world Lucas of all people won you over me
Kdadams76: you owe me that
Kdadams76: i don't need to wait 10months to read it for myself
JenneUCSC: i care about you both. and knew at some point i would have to choose between you. i put it off as long as possible. i couldnt bare to do it to either of you. but here i am. hurting someone i care about
JenneUCSC: its a game. emotions are involved. but its a game. and this is the choice i am making.
Kdadams76: and beating around the bush
JenneUCSC: taylor will be pissed at me when he gets back
Kdadams76: yeah he will
Kdadams76: so where does taylor fit into all this?
JenneUCSC: what do you mean?
Kdadams76: you gonna vote lucas out the next time around and keep taylor all the way to the finals?
Kdadams76: because you know...you're God's best friend
JenneUCSC: i dont know if i will be in a position to be making the choices at that point
Kdadams76: whatever
Kdadams76: you're in the position now
Kdadams76: so why will it be any different
Kdadams76: i just want to know why
Kdadams76: Lucas should've gone when we voted Tony and I had all the power to do it...but i saved him for his sake...and mostly yours
Kdadams76: did you know that?

[Jenne]

JenneUCSC: no
Kdadams76: yep
Kdadams76: me and taylor discussed and we kept him because of you
JenneUCSC: wow
Kdadams76: yes wow
JenneUCSC: i really had no idea
Kdadams76: i've put up with a lot of crap from lucas in thsi game
Kdadams76: i've had been forced to smile and shake hands with him and go with the flow
Kdadams76: and now look
Kdadams76: here's my payment
JenneUCSC: kyle what did you expect? this is a game where people get voted off. i always expect to go. what did you think was gonna happen?
JenneUCSC: you were gonna vote me off eventually
Kdadams76: honestly i wasn't
JenneUCSC: this was always gonna happen
Kdadams76: i was hoping me and you and taylor would be final 3
JenneUCSC: and then what?
JenneUCSC: someone would go
Kdadams76: if we were final 3 and you voted me off...i would expect it
Kdadams76: and it wouldn't hurt
Kdadams76: but this....this is ridiculous
Kdadams76: you are choosing lucas over me
JenneUCSC: there are 18 people in this game
JenneUCSC: and 17 of them wont be happy with how the game goes
Kdadams76: but you most definitely
Kdadams76: will
Kdadams76: go ahead make your game changing choices
JenneUCSC: i dont like myselfr
JenneUCSC: im not proud of myself
Kdadams76: thanks for stringing me along for 44
Kdadams76: days
JenneUCSC: i wish you wouldnt take it like that
JenneUCSC: but i understand your feelings
JenneUCSC: i really do
JenneUCSC: you are right to feel the way you do
JenneUCSC: i suck
JenneUCSC: and i know i do
Kdadams76: if it was anyone but lucas i'd be ok
Kdadams76: but you are choosing lucas over me
Kdadams76: lucas
Kdadams76: and ellie
Kdadams76: so much for our strong alliance
Kdadams76: i'm kicking myself for not sticking with ryan and rami
JenneUCSC: you would have gone a long time ago if you had
Kdadams76: i want to know right now why lucas over me?
JenneUCSC: it was almost you when jamie went. everyone was pissed you told ryan about the alliance. but we liked you so much. and honored the bond we had formed with you. so you didnt go, jamie did. and lucas was left int he dark about it
Kdadams76: i DID NOT tell ryan about our alliance
Kdadams76: how many different ways can i say that
Kdadams76: he figured it out
JenneUCSC: ok, well thats what we thought at the time
JenneUCSC: whether it was true or not. we had faith in you. and trusted you
Kdadams76: he knew i was close with taylor...he knew i kept standing up for lucas...and he knew you and gracie were the only girls i talked to
JenneUCSC: and we stood behind you on that
Kdadams76: so you can't stand behind me anymore and you are going to go with lucas
Kdadams76: i never actually turned on anyone in our alliance
Kdadams76: Lucas DID
JenneUCSC: i dont know what else i can say to you. i cant make this better
Kdadams76: absolutely nothing
Kdadams76: you've totally slapped me in the face
Kdadams76: and all this because Taylor isn't here
JenneUCSC: i wish taylor was here actually. iw as gonna call him and let him know
JenneUCSC: i dont want to be deceptive
JenneUCSC: its why i am telling you this
Kdadams76: and its why you've strung me along all this time?
Kdadams76: nothing's gonna change
Kdadams76: i'm done
Kdadams76: do what you want
JenneUCSC: i am. i didnt want this to be like this
JenneUCSC: i knew it wouldnt be good
Kdadams76: thanks for the memories
JenneUCSC: but i was hoping you would still care enough about our friendship not to abondon it
“Kdadams76” signed off at 5:00:54 PM.

[Jenne]

JenneUCSC: im not gonna post that stuff, for taylor's sake
JenneUCSC: i still dont like it though
JenneUCSC: chris was rude bout it
SurvivorGracie: smack him upside his noggin
JenneUCSC: he said he didnt like all us playing together
SurvivorGracie: um, we didn't know we'd all *be* here
SurvivorGracie: and
SurvivorGracie: he plays games deliberately with Mich under aliases
SurvivorGracie: he doesn't have much wiggle room on that
JenneUCSC: chris is good at judging others but never puts himself under his own microscope
JenneUCSC: we know this
SurvivorGracie: :-)
JenneUCSC: ugh! kyle! this is painful
JenneUCSC: i dont know HOW to tell him
SurvivorGracie: :-( me either
JenneUCSC: do you want to do it together?
JenneUCSC: in like 1/2hr?
SurvivorGracie: sure
JenneUCSC: he's gonna be watching survivor then
JenneUCSC: blegh
JenneUCSC: or now
JenneUCSC: ugh
JenneUCSC: it may come out now
SurvivorGracie: want to start a chat?
SurvivorGracie: he knows :-(
JenneUCSC: i told him
SurvivorGracie: what'd he say?
SurvivorGracie: Kdadams76: i can't believe either one of you
JenneUCSC: pretty much the same thing
SurvivorGracie: Kdadams76: you promised me gracie

Kdadams76: choose Lucas over me?
JenneUCSC: he's workn me too
JenneUCSC: *hugs*
JenneUCSC: its hurts but we have to do it
SurvivorGracie: SurvivorGracie: I wish I had words

SurvivorGracie: and I'm sorry .. words are all failing me
SurvivorGracie: and yea
SurvivorGracie: we have to do this
SurvivorGracie: he hates me
JenneUCSC: ditto
SurvivorGracie: <sigh> I'd rather kyle hate me than mikey
JenneUCSC: he just asked me if i've known lucas as long as ive known taylor
JenneUCSC: or if lucas was my bf
SurvivorGracie: oh my
SurvivorGracie: *where* would he get that
SurvivorGracie: are you telling the truth about how long you've known "lucas"/
JenneUCSC: no
JenneUCSC: we promised not to do that
SurvivorGracie: *nods*
SurvivorGracie: I just wanted to make sure we were saying the same thing in case he asks me
JenneUCSC: this hurts
SurvivorGracie: he quit talking to me
SurvivorGracie: told me to "just stop"
SurvivorGracie: this sucks royally
SurvivorGracie: <sigh> now I know why people just blindside people
JenneUCSC: lol
JenneUCSC: thanks, i need a laugh
SurvivorGracie: seriously!
SurvivorGracie: let people go to LL and be mad
SurvivorGracie: between us
SurvivorGracie: here's something I truly don't get
SurvivorGracie: why do people think they just won't be voted out?
SurvivorGracie: I mean
SurvivorGracie: I *always* expect it to be
JenneUCSC: i'm expecting to go tonight!
SurvivorGracie: so am I!
SurvivorGracie: could be the first double-boot
SurvivorGracie: wonder if he's figured out if he gets ellie to vote with him .. he could at least get a tie
JenneUCSC: why would ellie vote with someone she has wanted gone the most all game?
SurvivorGracie: I don't think she would
SurvivorGracie: but if kyle could make a convincing argument to her .. who knows what she would do
JenneUCSC: well he doesnt have much time
SurvivorGracie: true enough
SurvivorGracie: especially since ellie said she wouldn't be back online until just before tc
SurvivorGracie: is he still talking to you?
JenneUCSC: yah
SurvivorGracie: anything good?
SurvivorGracie: he doesn't want to hear from me at all
JenneUCSC: ouch
JenneUCSC: he was harsh
SurvivorGracie: what'd he say?
JenneUCSC: raked me over the coals
JenneUCSC: basically hates me
SurvivorGracie: *hugs*
SurvivorGracie: why was he raking you over the coals though?
JenneUCSC: cause i am chosing lucas over him
JenneUCSC: and he doesnt understand why
JenneUCSC: cuase i couldnt tell him why
SurvivorGracie: yeah
SurvivorGracie: you've already voted right?
JenneUCSC: just about to
JenneUCSC: he may change his vote for one of us now
SurvivorGracie: more than likely
SurvivorGracie: *grin* the jury is gonna hate when they have to vote either you or I to win
JenneUCSC: he may tell ellie tay and i know one another
JenneUCSC: who knows. hes a lose cannon now
JenneUCSC: i know!
SurvivorGracie: if we both make the f2 .. can you just imagine what the jury questions will be like?
SurvivorGracie: I'm like tempted to just say . .get over it.
SurvivorGracie: we weren't mean
SurvivorGracie: we weren't cruel
SurvivorGracie: we didn't play with you
SurvivorGracie: we simply OUTplayed you
SurvivorGracie: does that sound really harsh?
JenneUCSC: sounds like the truth
SurvivorGracie: yeah
SurvivorGracie: I don't want to be mean about it .. but its the truth
SurvivorGracie: we HAVEN'T been mean to these people
JenneUCSC: nope, as respectful as possible
SurvivorGracie: yes
SurvivorGracie: ya know .. I sincerely hope we are the final 2 .. 'cause I'm starting to get a little irked .. I want to make them vote one of us to win
JenneUCSC: i do too!
SurvivorGracie: I'm sure that makes me awful
SurvivorGracie: but I can live wiht myself still
JenneUCSC: will you text message me tonight?
JenneUCSC: with what happens?
SurvivorGracie: most def
SurvivorGracie: I have your number saved now :-)
JenneUCSC: i will be wiggn out
JenneUCSC: good!
JenneUCSC: i need to go. finish up here and get to class
JenneUCSC: *hugs* bye honey
SurvivorGracie: *hugs*
SurvivorGracie: love you

[Jenne]

LucasHorowitz: *hugs* I heard Kyle was mean :-(
JenneUCSC: i couldnt vote him out without telling him
JenneUCSC: i just didnt feel right about it
JenneUCSC: and he made me feel awful
JenneUCSC: :-( yes he was mean
JenneUCSC: and probally wont be my friend after this
JenneUCSC: which to me is just sad
JenneUCSC: and proved he wasnt a friend to begin with
LucasHorowitz: pretty much
LucasHorowitz: *more hugs*
JenneUCSC: thank you!
JenneUCSC: were you ok with the taylor vote?
JenneUCSC: i was gonna tell you bout it but i never saw you before hand
LucasHorowitz: well I freaked when i saw it
JenneUCSC: he talked to beth and i about it on tues i think
JenneUCSC: or maybe monday
LucasHorowitz: get that?
JenneUCSC: no
JenneUCSC: get what?
LucasHorowitz: it bugged me that he didn't tell me himself but its no big deal
JenneUCSC: he just isnt here now, which made it hard
JenneUCSC: when he talked to us about it, i told him i didnt like it but i understood how he felt
JenneUCSC: but that he should ask you first if you would mind
LucasHorowitz: I know.
LucasHorowitz: well he didn't
LucasHorowitz: he had chances to.
LucasHorowitz: I mean, its ok
JenneUCSC: i dont blaim him though
JenneUCSC: you can be kinda intimidating
JenneUCSC: :-P
JenneUCSC: you know with your big muscles and all
LucasHorowitz: I have no muscles
LucasHorowitz: I'm scrawny 98 pound weakling
JenneUCSC: he he
JenneUCSC: 98lbs??? no way!
JenneUCSC: you'd die!
LucasHorowitz: more then that, lol--you never heard the saying?
JenneUCSC: saying?
JenneUCSC: i must not have
LucasHorowitz: the sterotype from beach movies/cartoons is that the weaklings all weigh 98 pounds
JenneUCSC: man i should know that
JenneUCSC: after beach party!
JenneUCSC: omg, I HAVNT SENT YOU TAPE YET
JenneUCSC: i totally forgot!
JenneUCSC: see where my brain has been!
JenneUCSC: *slaps forehead*
JenneUCSC: i have too much school in my brain, my ability to process day to day stuff as vanquished
JenneUCSC: omg, i LOVE the new challenge!
JenneUCSC: next to a shopping challenge i couldnt have asked for a more tailor made for jenne challenge!
LucasHorowitz: well watch out cause Ellie is quite the writer herself
LucasHorowitz: and I can turn it on if I need to!
JenneUCSC: <-----voted most likely to be a romance novelist in HS
LucasHorowitz: its gonna be a three way race missy!
JenneUCSC: well ellie's got skeeels but doesnt have the life experience that we do in our old age!
JenneUCSC: *giggles*
JenneUCSC: mines gonna be dirty!!!
LucasHorowitz: could be interesting
LucasHorowitz: I know that
LucasHorowitz: Beth thinks Ellie is gonna smoke it
JenneUCSC: she probally feels like she needs it the most
LucasHorowitz: she does
JenneUCSC: so i expect her to bring it
LucasHorowitz: but we have to be ready if she wins all the same
JenneUCSC: :-( donwanna
JenneUCSC: youcantmakeme
JenneUCSC: *pouts*
LucasHorowitz: i won't
LucasHorowitz: just be ready emotionally
JenneUCSC: after this kyle thing, eek! they will all be killing me
JenneUCSC: at least i can be at this next one
JenneUCSC: i'll be ready. i may be emotional but man, i can do it
JenneUCSC: ellie will want taylor gone?
JenneUCSC: huh?
LucasHorowitz: she will
LucasHorowitz: he's the biggest threat to winning
LucasHorowitz: he has no enemies
JenneUCSC: true, others have done all the work
JenneUCSC: dirty work that is
LucasHorowitz: and--well, this is what I decided
LucasHorowitz: since you asked yesterday
LucasHorowitz: and I have thought about it
JenneUCSC: ellie has no enemies too
JenneUCSC: less than taylor im sure
LucasHorowitz: when this started it was you, me, beth, and liz
LucasHorowitz: (yeah but she has to win IC first)
LucasHorowitz: and I want us to take this to the end if we can
JenneUCSC: well you know i was always tight with taylor. i never had much of a tie to liz
LucasHorowitz: and thats nothing against taylor
JenneUCSC: wouldnt you be the pimp with all the ladies!
LucasHorowitz: lol
LucasHorowitz: I want taylor if final four with the rest of us
LucasHorowitz: but i think if ellie wins again
LucasHorowitz: I would vote him
JenneUCSC: i figured
LucasHorowitz: I refues to vote for jenne or beth until I have to
JenneUCSC: i just am still in awe we actually pulled this out
LucasHorowitz: not done yet!
JenneUCSC: we are sooo close to being all the f4
LucasHorowitz: just one to go!
LucasHorowitz: that better be a good story!
JenneUCSC: i am really proud of us for making it this far
JenneUCSC: my story will be da bomb
JenneUCSC: ;-)
LucasHorowitz: it can be about the day you met erik
JenneUCSC: naw
JenneUCSC: but i actually sent erik a well...erotic story when we first started seeing each other
JenneUCSC: im adapting that
LucasHorowitz: jenne!
JenneUCSC: cause it was actually VERY good
LucasHorowitz: people will get to read this you know
LucasHorowitz: you bettr keep it pg
LucasHorowitz: ;-)
JenneUCSC: i changed the names!
JenneUCSC: that was the rough part. i was trying to think of romantic names
JenneUCSC: i wanted to use lucas!
JenneUCSC: i was sooo close to using jamie and lucas
LucasHorowitz: you still can!
LucasHorowitz: hehehe
JenneUCSC: i actually hope she doesnt share our stories with everyone else
JenneUCSC: i'll be embarrassed
JenneUCSC:
LucasHorowitz: she did last time
LucasHorowitz: that makes me nervous as well
JenneUCSC: if the judges are christian...im screwed
JenneUCSC: but if they are pervs like rob, its mine!
LucasHorowitz: hehehe
JenneUCSC: i just cant believe we are lookn at f4 right now
JenneUCSC: its gone pretty fast actually
LucasHorowitz: and about to get faster
JenneUCSC: two more weeks?
JenneUCSC: final TC is slotted for th night
JenneUCSC: which stinks for me
LucasHorowitz: i just know that beth was told she would be done the day before holiday
JenneUCSC: she leaves friday
JenneUCSC: final TC will be th
JenneUCSC: and i'll be in class
JenneUCSC: :-(
JenneUCSC: if im in a f2 spot, i bet i do poorly, you know not being there and all
JenneUCSC: :-P
LucasHorowitz: lol
LucasHorowitz: they will have to send in q's ahead of time
JenneUCSC: i never expected to be around this long! i had put on my app that starting in Feb i had class TH and karen said it was ok
JenneUCSC: but now that there is hardly any of us left, i just hate not being there
LucasHorowitz: i know
LucasHorowitz: I'm actually getting use to it
LucasHorowitz: the first few I would be SO nervous
JenneUCSC: nervous not being there?
JenneUCSC: you should see me in class
JenneUCSC: i'm like sweating it out
LucasHorowitz: nervous being there
LucasHorowitz: I like the other way better
LucasHorowitz: hits you all at once
JenneUCSC: you mean when it isnt live?
LucasHorowitz: yup
JenneUCSC: easier on schedules
LucasHorowitz: the mitch one I just scrolled to the votes
LucasHorowitz: i still dunno what anyone said lol
JenneUCSC: but live adds nerves
LucasHorowitz: yup
JenneUCSC: beth has been text messaging me after the votes are read
JenneUCSC: cause i seriously am all nerves sitting in class
JenneUCSC: i told her i couldnt wait
LucasHorowitz: aw :-)
JenneUCSC: today i was freaking out till she sent it!
JenneUCSC: kept lookn at the clock every two seconds
LucasHorowitz: you two are SO nervous
LucasHorowitz: gotta believe!
JenneUCSC: my prof probally thinks im skitzoid
LucasHorowitz: :-)