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[Jenne]

JenneUCSC: ready to duke it out???
JenneUCSC: lol
Love Struck Muse: LOL yes
JenneUCSC: im sooo scared!!!!
Love Struck Muse: me too :-( i know if i mess this up i'm gone!
JenneUCSC: :-( no pressure!
Love Struck Muse: lol, nope!
Love Struck Muse: does karen know you'r eon?
Love Struck Muse: you're on*
JenneUCSC: i imed her
JenneUCSC: she said we'll do it in 5mins
Love Struck Muse: k
Love Struck Muse: Wow, I can't believe how nervous I am
JenneUCSC: i am sooo nervous!
JenneUCSC: i cant wait to read your story
Love Struck Muse: same! looks like our two different approaches worked too well. haha
JenneUCSC: i know!
JenneUCSC: we got 70/80 thats like an A man!
JenneUCSC: maybe b+
Love Struck Muse: yeah, it's a B+ but still if there was a curve we'd get A+'s!
JenneUCSC: lol
Love Struck Muse is away at 2:40:49 PM.
Love Struck Muse returned at 2:50:50 PM.
Love Struck Muse: good job!

Auto response from JenneUCSC: having a heart attack

JenneUCSC: im just in awe
Love Struck Muse: lol, I kept thinking partial hearts didn't count
JenneUCSC: she said they did after your guesses
JenneUCSC: i wasnt even lookin in the chat
Love Struck Muse: I know, I kept reading it wrong
JenneUCSC: i just startn counting everything
JenneUCSC: but i swore i missed some
Love Struck Muse: So are you going to vote for me?
JenneUCSC: :-( i am
Love Struck Muse: k
JenneUCSC: i wont enjoy it
JenneUCSC: i just read your story. it gave me chills. you have a gift
Love Struck Muse: thanks
JenneUCSC: you hate me now?
JenneUCSC: its amazing to me. you go your whole life being the nice sweet one that everyone likes, you play a game like survivor, and you become despised for playing the game. i m not cut out for this game
Love Struck Muse: I'm hurt... even after I found out about the alliance you lead me on. I should have expected this. Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me.
JenneUCSC: you arent a fool. i am conflicted about all this. since the f6 my heart has been torn to pieces. and im making the decisions at this point that keep the most people happy
JenneUCSC: why i voted kyle out
JenneUCSC: why i am voting you out
JenneUCSC: its either vote out people i care about, or get voted out myself
Love Struck Muse: Jenne, you're immune. Plus, what happened to the whole "I don't care how i do I'm in it for the epxerience" attitude? That went out the window fast.
JenneUCSC: i always played this game to win
JenneUCSC: or at least make it to the f2
JenneUCSC: at this point no one will vote for me to win
JenneUCSC: i never wanted to hurt people
JenneUCSC: i tried not to
JenneUCSC: but it happened anyways
JenneUCSC: no matter who i vote for, im hurting someone
Love Struck Muse: well, congrats... you played me, you hurt my feelings, and you ruined these games for me. You're the better Survivor so good for you.
JenneUCSC: not good for me
JenneUCSC: this is a game where you vote people out. feelings get involved and i had no idea i had the power to hurt people by playing this game. that was my own naivety though. i had no idea my own power to effect others.
JenneUCSC: i learned a lot playing this game
JenneUCSC: but i do not think i will come back for the all star because i dont want to do this again. my heart cant take it. may be an online game but it feels so real. the connection you form and all of it. its too real
JenneUCSC: and i cant handle going thru all this again
JenneUCSC: its not worth it
Love Struck Muse: I've already decided I'm not doing all-stars.
Love Struck Muse: so feel free to come back
JenneUCSC: i already told the others i dont want to
JenneUCSC: looks like annette and kyle may be coming back
JenneUCSC: which i think would be great
JenneUCSC: ellie you know survivor as well as anyone. i played this game to the best of my ability. i never wanted to hurt people. and i am very sorry that people get hurt when they are voted off. but thats the game. i would love to be your friend once this game is over but the choice is yours. i plan to send you everything i said about you in my confessionals once this game is over. so you can really see how i felt about you all this time. the choice is yours though. i always cared about you. always. so its your choice if our friendship ends today or continues past this game. you have the power in that. and thats more power than anything within this game. if nothing else, i think you are an amazing young woman who i respect and admire. and i wish you a life full of life, good health, and happiness. you can do with that what you want. but i wish you well always.
Love Struck Muse: Jenne, it doesn't bother me that you played the game. I would expect nothing less. But to cover it up with all the lies and try to justify it in the end with all kinds of bullshit is what gets me. I'm happy you are finally admitting that you are out to win.
JenneUCSC: i do, i was always playing to win. isnt that the goal when you play a game? i didnt know i had ever mislead you in that. i was stoked every step of the way for how far i got. but i was always reaching further each step
Love Struck Muse: um yeah... he said over and over to me that you didn't care how you did, that you would gladly sacrifice yourself for me, and that you were all about the experience. ring any bells?
JenneUCSC: *hangs head in shame* all too well
JenneUCSC: the sacrifice myself for you part anyways
JenneUCSC: other stuff i could have said, i dont remember
JenneUCSC: but i did protect you for this whole game
JenneUCSC: i made sure you were always safe
JenneUCSC: but that wasnt gonna last forever
JenneUCSC: i had a f4 i was always striving for, and it consisted of lucas, taylor, gracie, and myself.
JenneUCSC: you would be hard to beat and you know it
JenneUCSC: you havn t pissed anyone off
JenneUCSC: i have everyone hating me
Love Struck Muse: yep, you do.
JenneUCSC: i have to sit next to someone who is hated as much as me
JenneUCSC: and i still will lose
Love Struck Muse: most likely, yes
JenneUCSC: but i will lose because of peoples emotions
JenneUCSC: not because of how i played this game
JenneUCSC: because i played this game hard
JenneUCSC: and i played it well
JenneUCSC: i wasnt mean
JenneUCSC: i wasnt cruel
JenneUCSC: and i wasnt viscious
JenneUCSC: i played the game
JenneUCSC: but its the juries choice
JenneUCSC: if i'm not on the jury myself
Love Struck Muse: some would beg to differ... and if you make the final 2 with Gracie, she's played just as good of a game as you.
JenneUCSC: cause i very well may be sittn next to you voting for someone
JenneUCSC: gracie has
JenneUCSC: she deserves to win
JenneUCSC: just as much as i do if not more
JenneUCSC: i am not gonna let you make me feel bad about this anymore. i am a good person. and i cared about you. i played this game with as much honesty as possible and with integrity. i never meant to hurt people but i acknowledge that i did despite my best efforts. i was close with a lot of people. and people were gonna be upset. but i honestly think you are being unfair to me. i was always your friend and cared about you. and you just make me feel like im evil with no heart. and frankly its not true. i apolgized to you for hurting you. but im not gonna allow you to make me feel bad for playing a game we both signed up to play. you are not innocent here either. you played this game same as me. i'm not gonna let you make me feel bad any more though. im done crying. cause i know i havnt done anything wrong. there is nothing i can say to make you feel better and im done trying to repair a friendship you are hell bent to destroy. so goodluck ellie. i wish you well. but im not gonna let you tear into me anymore. its just not fair of you
Love Struck Muse: Jenne, I don't want to talk about this game anymore with you. You think you feel like shit? Have you ever considered how I feel? I don't think so... this game isn't for us and we both know that now.
JenneUCSC: of course i have thought about how you feel
Love Struck Muse: lets just agree... not ot talk about this
Love Struck Muse: to*
JenneUCSC: why do you think i've been crying all week
Love Struck Muse: we had a good friendship and i'm sure if we weren't in a game together we'd get along great
JenneUCSC: i totally agree
JenneUCSC: does this mean when this is over we can be friends?
JenneUCSC: and never talk about this game EVER again?
Love Struck Muse: Yes! In fact, we can never talk about the game starting now. lol
JenneUCSC: deal!
JenneUCSC: thats the best thing i've heard all week
Love Struck Muse: lol
JenneUCSC: so i couldnt help but notice the the "Jessie - together at last, together at last! <3" in your profile
JenneUCSC: explain?
Love Struck Muse: one of my friends who I don't see anymore... we're going to the same college!
JenneUCSC: cause i was wondering if that was the boy you were all drooln over
JenneUCSC: awww
Love Struck Muse: No! That's Brendan
Love Struck Muse: Jessie is a girl lol
JenneUCSC: well thats still good!
JenneUCSC: you know where you are goin then fer sure?
Love Struck Muse: I've told everyone I'm going to Dartmouth but honestly, I'm not sure yet. My parents think I'm going there, everyone does but I just don't know.
JenneUCSC: is that where jessie is going?
JenneUCSC: thats a great school
Love Struck Muse: Yep, Jessie's a genius. She's very athletic when it comes to cross country and track so she has that too.
JenneUCSC: so why would you not want to go there?
Love Struck Muse: that's a good question... and I really don't have an answer... like nothing concrete. It's just a feeling, does that make sense?
JenneUCSC: of course
Love Struck Muse is away at 4:18:24 PM.

[Jenne]

You have just entered room "Chat 21824125292553024782."
taylorserveshard: Hey
SurvivorGracie: hey
taylorserveshard: Apparently Lucas was helping ellie out with this ic
SurvivorGracie: what?
taylorserveshard: and that's why he "struggled" with it
SurvivorGracie: what?
JenneUCSC: how do you know?
SurvivorGracie: do you believe her?
taylorserveshard: I'm talking with ellie
JenneUCSC: i was thinking that before actually
taylorserveshard: why would she lie
SurvivorGracie: why would lucas help her?
JenneUCSC: i was thinking he didnt want to win
taylorserveshard: she's laying it on thick
JenneUCSC: she made me cry
SurvivorGracie: she would lie because she wants to break us apart
JenneUCSC: and trying to save herself?
taylorserveshard: right but
taylorserveshard: I told her i didn't like lucas
taylorserveshard: so trying to get lucas and I to vote with her together won't help her
SurvivorGracie: who does she want to vote out? does she say
taylorserveshard: You Beth
taylorserveshard: It was You or Jenne
taylorserveshard: and Jenne won immunity
SurvivorGracie: lol
SurvivorGracie: why would lucas help ellie!
SurvivorGracie: that makes no sense to me
taylorserveshard: because he knows you two are tight?
taylorserveshard: and he wants her jury vote?
JenneUCSC: ellie told you she wanted to vote me out?
taylorserveshard: yes
JenneUCSC: that bitch
JenneUCSC: how dare she make me cry and feel like a bitch
JenneUCSC: for what i did
JenneUCSC: when she was doing the same thing
taylorserveshard: she is really pissed at the both of you because you told her it was girl power all the way
taylorserveshard: and now
JenneUCSC: she is gone tomorrow
JenneUCSC: no way that changes
SurvivorGracie: I'm voting out ellie
SurvivorGracie: and next is lucas
SurvivorGracie: I'm really ticked that Lucas was helping ellie
JenneUCSC: doesnt surprise me
SurvivorGracie: it does me .. since lucas was preaching at me last night on how ellie HAD to lose
JenneUCSC: i got the feeling from him, he wouldnt mind if ellie had won. i really did feel i HAD to win to keep the four of us the f4
taylorserveshard: see
JenneUCSC: i dont think he helped her, but he certainly wasnt helping us either
taylorserveshard: this is why I wanted him to go
JenneUCSC: i have no problem with him going at the f4. but i felt bad bout cutting him out before then
JenneUCSC: even if he does pull this kinda bullshit
taylorserveshard: well just think of lucas didn't hate kyle and vise versa
taylorserveshard: we could be up shit creek
SurvivorGracie: now I know why Tenzil NEVER makes it past the merge in most games
SurvivorGracie: he'd better now show up
SurvivorGracie: because I will go off on him
SurvivorGracie: not*
taylorserveshard: Jenne she's telling me that you two were close like kyle and I were, and that's why she feels so hurt
JenneUCSC: we were
JenneUCSC: still i havnt known her for 2yrs
taylorserveshard: she feels like you guys were close and then it was all lies
JenneUCSC: its not like i could tell her the truth!
JenneUCSC: jesus!
SurvivorGracie: and it's not like jenne was cruel or mean or vicious to her
JenneUCSC: not like you told kyle bout the real f4 ever
JenneUCSC: you know?
JenneUCSC: i tried not to lie to her
SurvivorGracie: we adapted to the place we found ourselves .. the tribe we had was all girls!
JenneUCSC: but sometime you have to
SurvivorGracie: we had to make do with that
taylorserveshard: but I did tell kyle the plan
taylorserveshard: and he thought he was just above lucas in the pecking order
JenneUCSC: we both mislead people we cared about
JenneUCSC: but we were playing this game
taylorserveshard: Just think thoughts about the final three
JenneUCSC: if im in the f2 the jury is gonna shit all over me
JenneUCSC: i will be a fecal covered jenne
SurvivorGracie: meh .. not from me ... I'll come and hug you babe
SurvivorGracie: I'm extremely disappointed in Tenzil
taylorserveshard: going into the final three, I know you two will take each other because I would probably ( not meaning to to gloat) beat you both
taylorserveshard: but I'm okay with that
SurvivorGracie: that's um, sort of insulting
JenneUCSC: are you feeling the urge to knock him off his high horse yet?
JenneUCSC: :-P
taylorserveshard: lol
SurvivorGracie: um, yeah
SurvivorGracie: *smacks Taylor*
taylorserveshard: I mean come on you both said " I WILL LOSE IN THE FINAL2"
taylorserveshard: just repeating with you have said
JenneUCSC: well as a friend you are supposed to say "no, dont say that. you will do great"
JenneUCSC: NOT "yah you guys both suck and i'd mop the floor with you both"
SurvivorGracie: word!
taylorserveshard: You will do great
taylorserveshard: they will blast me for not talking to them and give it to you
JenneUCSC: *humph* too little too late!
JenneUCSC: :-(
taylorserveshard: that wasn't meant to sound conceided okay?
taylorserveshard: wow , you two are really pissed off aren't you
SurvivorGracie: not pissed
SurvivorGracie: annoyed
JenneUCSC: not so much
SurvivorGracie: I don't get why
SurvivorGracie: because Jenne and I are genuinely nice people
SurvivorGracie: that the jury expects us to be lead to our deaths
SurvivorGracie: instead of PLAYING the damn game
SurvivorGracie: are you still voting Ellie out tomorrow night, Taylor?
taylorserveshard: yes
taylorserveshard: ofcourse
taylorserveshard: I didn't promise her anything
SurvivorGracie: in case she actually gets Tenz to vote me out
taylorserveshard: I said I would talk to tenz, but that I wouldn't hold my breath at all
SurvivorGracie: and what are you planning on saying to tenz?
taylorserveshard: nothing
JenneUCSC: lol
taylorserveshard: guys math wise I'm not stupid
SurvivorGracie: LOL
taylorserveshard: the best I could do there is the final 3 anyway
SurvivorGracie: when did ellie and tenz get so tight?
taylorserveshard: after jamie left tenz needed a new girltoy
taylorserveshard: and annette was married
JenneUCSC: they both bonded over wanting kyle gone
JenneUCSC: ellie couldnt stand kyle
JenneUCSC: neither could lucas
JenneUCSC: lucas promised her at the jamie vote that kyle would go before them both
SurvivorGracie: damn ellie for winning last immunity
JenneUCSC: he was all proud when kyle was going that he was finally delivering on that promise

[Jenne]

SurvivorGracie: kyle would still be here and she'd be cooling her ass in LL
JenneUCSC: he has her vote if he is in the f2
SurvivorGracie: too bad
SurvivorGracie: he won't be there
SurvivorGracie: they can both vote for one of us 3 to win
JenneUCSC: *grin*
taylorserveshard: <-- isn't feeling as villiany as the two ladies in the room
SurvivorGracie: I'm not feeling villany
JenneUCSC: and we all know mikey has a weird thing with the young girls...lindsay...joni...elizabeth...ellie...
SurvivorGracie: just upset that people don't think that we get to PLAY the damn game
taylorserveshard: Michelle or Mikey
taylorserveshard: must be people with M names
JenneUCSC: gracie and jenne are not the villains of this season
SurvivorGracie: Mikey is a very young 30-year old
SurvivorGracie: I agree jenne
SurvivorGracie: we aren't
JenneUCSC: we are victims of the salem witch trials
taylorserveshard: who is?
JenneUCSC: why does there have to be a villain?
SurvivorGracie: there doesn't *have* to be a villian
SurvivorGracie: and if there is
SurvivorGracie: it would be jamie
SurvivorGracie: Jenne and I were nice to these people
JenneUCSC: and now they are mad when we vote them out
JenneUCSC: cause nice people cant play survivor well
SurvivorGracie: sure we lied ... but not frivilous lies
JenneUCSC: it just can not be
SurvivorGracie: we never lied simply to lie
taylorserveshard: <-- is feeling left out
SurvivorGracie: why?
JenneUCSC: why?
JenneUCSC: lol
JenneUCSC: you are a nice person too
taylorserveshard: because everyone doesn't hate me for no good reason
JenneUCSC: oh poor baby
JenneUCSC: i'll hate you for no reason
JenneUCSC: i hate you taylor
JenneUCSC: for no good reason!
taylorserveshard: I lied but I admit that I lied and Honestly I wouldn't give a crap if someone did ( unless it was one of you three) this is an online game
taylorserveshard: these people aren't friends for me
SurvivorGracie: *nods*
JenneUCSC: kyle?
taylorserveshard: Kyle and I became close yes
taylorserveshard: and I do care about him
taylorserveshard: however our bond is built on a lie
SurvivorGracie: the difference is
taylorserveshard: and unless he can forgive me and move on
taylorserveshard: then it won't be life or death for me
SurvivorGracie: everyone we've voted out KNOWS our bonds were built on that lie
SurvivorGracie: Kyle doesn't know that for you yet
SurvivorGracie: *thats* why they hate us
taylorserveshard: right
taylorserveshard: but on the other hand I didn't build my bond on lies that I would have to break in game
SurvivorGracie: but you should have
SurvivorGracie: because .. it was only a fluke that you didn't know the change in plans
SurvivorGracie: and *if* you did know
SurvivorGracie: how would you have voted?
SurvivorGracie: Kyle? or Lucas?
SurvivorGracie: and if you voted Kyle
SurvivorGracie: then he would be hating you too
JenneUCSC: all i know is i am leaving this game with the same friends i went into. so im not losing anything. and if these people forgive me, then i gain something from it. but at least i dont lose anything'
SurvivorGracie: I'm with you Jenne
SurvivorGracie: I mean .. there can be only ONE winner
JenneUCSC: i care bout ellie and kyle but this was always a game. if they dont care bout me outside the game, i'll live iwth it
SurvivorGracie: and once they find out my alias
SurvivorGracie: I'm sure they'll hate me more
SurvivorGracie: *shrug*
JenneUCSC: i know, once they know the f4 all knew each other the whole time
taylorserveshard: acutally if you two ellie and lucas were voting for kyle I wouldn't have changed me vote
JenneUCSC: they will not be happy
taylorserveshard: 4-2 is enough
SurvivorGracie: then I didn't need to vote for Annette either?
JenneUCSC: and i dont have to vote for ellie?
JenneUCSC: *laughs*
SurvivorGracie: I'll be glad when this game is over .. and we can go back to just being friends
JenneUCSC: agreed
taylorserveshard: thats fine with me
JenneUCSC: alright kiddies, i need to write a paper. so i'm gonna cut out
JenneUCSC: this has been such the emotional week!
SurvivorGracie: yeah .. I need to finish folding all this damn laundry
JenneUCSC: c u later! *blows kisses round da room*
JenneUCSC:
SurvivorGracie: *hugs taylor*
SurvivorGracie: *hugs jenne*
SurvivorGracie: *hugs gracie*
SurvivorGracie: lol

[Jenne]

SurvivorGracie: *happy dance*
JenneUCSC: final 4 baby!!!
SurvivorGracie: wow .. Ellie was way off on her guesses to
JenneUCSC: *hugs*
JenneUCSC: yep
SurvivorGracie: she was just throwing out numbers?
JenneUCSC: she wasnt counting the partial hearts
SurvivorGracie: ah
SurvivorGracie: good for you kiddo!
SurvivorGracie: I saw someting that Karen said partial hearts counted
JenneUCSC: yep
JenneUCSC: she mis read it
JenneUCSC: i didnt even see that
SurvivorGracie: aw ... poor ellie
JenneUCSC: i was frantically solving and counting
SurvivorGracie: I suspect she knows she's gone
JenneUCSC: she knows
SurvivorGracie: and we made our f4!
JenneUCSC: she asked if i was voting for her
JenneUCSC: and if i was, everyone else was
SurvivorGracie: she told me earlier that she knew she needed this
JenneUCSC: said that to me before hand too
SurvivorGracie: she gave it her best shot
JenneUCSC: so basically her best friend in the game out did her at a challenge then voted her out
JenneUCSC: i am a bitch
JenneUCSC: slap me!
SurvivorGracie: ooh yes!
SurvivorGracie: I've been waiting for that invitation
SurvivorGracie: *slaps Jenne*
SurvivorGracie: *giggle*
JenneUCSC: nope, still feel like a bitch
SurvivorGracie: nope
SurvivorGracie: you're not
SurvivorGracie: of all challenges
SurvivorGracie: she knew how much she needed the win
SurvivorGracie: and if cute lil Beffy says your not a bitch .. you simply are not
JenneUCSC: and it had to be me to beat her
SurvivorGracie: lol .. that's 'cause you were our hope to win the writing
SurvivorGracie: <--- sucks at writing
SurvivorGracie: OBVIOUSLY
SurvivorGracie: lol
SurvivorGracie: brb .. laundry run
JenneUCSC: k
SurvivorGracie: back
SurvivorGracie: I love having clean clothes!
JenneUCSC: me too!
SurvivorGracie: lol .. I just hate washing them
SurvivorGracie: nothing from Ellie still?
JenneUCSC: she doesnt want to play all stars
JenneUCSC: i ruined these games for her
JenneUCSC: apparently
SurvivorGracie: you're kidding
SurvivorGracie: that's a little dramatic
SurvivorGracie: see .. here's my question
SurvivorGracie: don't people realize only ONE person wins!
SurvivorGracie: how can they NOT expect to get voted out at some point
JenneUCSC: cause i lead her on
JenneUCSC: made her think i wanted a f3 with her and you
SurvivorGracie: and she led others on
SurvivorGracie: which she admitted
SurvivorGracie: do NOT beat yourself up, Jenne
SurvivorGracie: do NOT do it
SurvivorGracie: not over this
SurvivorGracie: I will tell you when you can
SurvivorGracie: if we had voted out Mikey .. then we could have
SurvivorGracie: but not this one
SurvivorGracie: lol ... are you listening to me?
JenneUCSC: sorry crying
SurvivorGracie: *hugs my Jenne*
SurvivorGracie: jenne ... seriously .. this one ... this isn't the vote to cry over .. I can understand *why* ....
SurvivorGracie: I mean
SurvivorGracie: what if I had let Okinawa chase me away?
JenneUCSC: i know
JenneUCSC: but i made friends and i lost them
JenneUCSC: all in and over a game
JenneUCSC: seems so silly
SurvivorGracie: then
SurvivorGracie: they aren't real friends
JenneUCSC: but at least i leave this game with the same friends i came in with
SurvivorGracie: if they lost to you at monopoly would they get mad?
SurvivorGracie: or if they lost at Sorry
SurvivorGracie: because you sent their game pieces back to the beginning
SurvivorGracie: or what about poker?
SurvivorGracie: which is all bout being able to lie
SurvivorGracie: with a straight face
SurvivorGracie: you weren't mean
SurvivorGracie: you weren't cruel
SurvivorGracie: and you weren't vicious to people
SurvivorGracie: jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeenne
JenneUCSC: i think you will win against me
SurvivorGracie: nooooooooooooooooooooope
SurvivorGracie: Jenne wins
SurvivorGracie: you will get taylor, mikey, kelley, steve and ellies votes
SurvivorGracie: I *might* get Annettes
SurvivorGracie: maybe
SurvivorGracie: oh . you'll get Kyle's too
JenneUCSC: ellie will not vote for me
JenneUCSC: she hates me
SurvivorGracie: if she has a choice between you and me
SurvivorGracie: you get her vote
JenneUCSC: no i dont
JenneUCSC: you have it
SurvivorGracie: no i don't
SurvivorGracie: you have it
SurvivorGracie: wanna fight?
SurvivorGracie: *hugs jenne*
SurvivorGracie: its okay sweetie
JenneUCSC: i kinda just gave it back to her
SurvivorGracie: good
SurvivorGracie: what'd you say?
JenneUCSC: i am not gonna let you make me feel bad about this anymore. i am a good person. and i cared about you. i played this game with as much honesty as possible and with integrity. i never meant to hurt people but i acknowledge that i did despite my best efforts. i was close with a lot of people. and people were gonna be upset. but i honestly think you are being unfair to me. i was always your friend and cared about you. and you just make me feel like im evil with no heart. and frankly its not true. i apolgized to you for hurting you. but im not gonna allow you to make me feel bad for playing a game we both signed up to play. you are not innocent here either. you played this game same as me. i'm not gonna let you make me feel bad any more though. im done crying. cause i know i havnt done anything wrong. there is nothing i can say to make you feel better and im done trying to repair a friendship you are hell bent to destroy. so goodluck ellie. i wish you well. but im not gonna let you tear into me anymore. its just not fair of you
SurvivorGracie: good for you!
SurvivorGracie: I'm so proud of you for that
JenneUCSC: it worked , wow
SurvivorGracie: what'd she say?
JenneUCSC: we have decided to never talk bout this game ever again, starting now
SurvivorGracie: that's a good start
SurvivorGracie: do you think mikey helped ellie?
JenneUCSC: i think he may have not wanted to win the challenge
JenneUCSC: i think he did want her to win
JenneUCSC: and vote taylor out
SurvivorGracie: but WHY
JenneUCSC: he is tight with ellie
SurvivorGracie: <sigh>
SurvivorGracie: lucas is pissing me off again
JenneUCSC: i know
SurvivorGracie: we freaken destroy ourselves to save him
JenneUCSC: i know
SurvivorGracie: and he's plotting BEHIND us!
JenneUCSC: look us 4 in the f4
JenneUCSC: for sure
JenneUCSC: see who wins f4 immunity
JenneUCSC: then figure out if its taylor or lucas
SurvivorGracie: yes .. taylor needs to hear lucas is next though
SurvivorGracie: lol
JenneUCSC: um duh!
SurvivorGracie: lol .. word!
JenneUCSC: is taylor trying to act like he hasnt done the same thing?
SurvivorGracie: surely sounds it to me
JenneUCSC: *knocks him off his high horse*
SurvivorGracie: he's playing all high and mighty
SurvivorGracie: exactly
SurvivorGracie: if he votes me out!
SurvivorGracie: *grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr*
JenneUCSC: omg, lets vote ellie,taylor, and lucas all out at TC tomorrow
JenneUCSC: i want to smack him for saying that
SurvivorGracie: sounds goot to me
SurvivorGracie: me too
SurvivorGracie: and he IS gloating
SurvivorGracie: fuck him
SurvivorGracie: and I think its hilarous that Ellie doesn't even ASK me about the vote
SurvivorGracie: or try to get me to turn on the guys
JenneUCSC: i'm annoyed
JenneUCSC: annoyed with ellie
JenneUCSC: annoyed with taylor
JenneUCSC: annoyed with mikey the least actually
JenneUCSC: lol
SurvivorGracie: since ellie ain't talking to me
SurvivorGracie: I"m annoyed with mikey and taylors
JenneUCSC: she is gonna try to get taylor and lucas to vote for you
SurvivorGracie: taylor said she is working him hard
SurvivorGracie: so even if she gets mikey to vote for me
SurvivorGracie: hopefully taylor won't
SurvivorGracie: but I could be gone tomorrow
JenneUCSC: mikey would not vote for you
JenneUCSC: EVER
JenneUCSC: i KNOW that
SurvivorGracie: he might
JenneUCSC: no he wouldnt
JenneUCSC: not over ellie
JenneUCSC: you know that
SurvivorGracie: he HELPED HER
JenneUCSC: to get taylor out
JenneUCSC: not you
SurvivorGracie: all the while telling me how hard it was for him to write
SurvivorGracie: and preaching about how ellie HAD to lose
JenneUCSC: mikey would not vote for you
JenneUCSC: ellie is goin after you. mikey will go after taylor. taylor will go after mikey
JenneUCSC: you and i are fine
SurvivorGracie: I hope so
SurvivorGracie: I don't feel so safe
JenneUCSC: taylor wont vote for you either
JenneUCSC: there is no way you are going tomorrow
JenneUCSC: i am 100% garunteeing you that
SurvivorGracie: *hugs Jenne*
JenneUCSC: maybe ellie would have a shot if she tried to get lucas or taylor
JenneUCSC: but she has no chance with you
JenneUCSC: you KNOW that
JenneUCSC: so dont let a bratty 18yr old girl shake you
SurvivorGracie: that's what is weird to me
SurvivorGracie: why doesn't ellie come to me about taking out a boy
SurvivorGracie: *grin* because I would be open to hearing about taking out lucas right now
SurvivorGracie: and if I get more annoyed
SurvivorGracie: even taylor
SurvivorGracie: LOL
JenneUCSC: well she wants lucas here
JenneUCSC: lucas has her jury vote if he is in f2
JenneUCSC: and i told her i was voting for her
JenneUCSC: she didnt try to change my mind
JenneUCSC: and she knows you are voting how i vote
JenneUCSC: at least i assume she assumes that
SurvivorGracie: yeah
SurvivorGracie: *grin* if Ellie was thinking .. she would think she needs Lucas on the jury to VOTE for her
SurvivorGracie: GET OUT OF MY HEAD
SurvivorGracie: LOL
JenneUCSC: lucas hiding today or what?
SurvivorGracie: evidently
SurvivorGracie: creep!
JenneUCSC: byyye!!!!
JenneUCSC: *hugs*
SurvivorGracie: bye!

[Jenne]

SurvivorGracie: ellie is working it HARD
JenneUCSC: i am sure
JenneUCSC: anyone cracking?
SurvivorGracie: I hope not
SurvivorGracie: they're both feeding her lines
SurvivorGracie: but telling me they are voting for her
JenneUCSC: *sighs*
JenneUCSC: she isnt making me feel sorry for what i did to her now
SurvivorGracie: same
JenneUCSC: cause i have a feeling she would have done the same thing to me
SurvivorGracie: I think so
SurvivorGracie: evidently taylor told her that he would vote for me if lucas would
JenneUCSC: whatever
JenneUCSC: they should just say, "sorry honey, you are going home"
SurvivorGracie: that's what I told Tenz
SurvivorGracie: just be honest at this piont
SurvivorGracie: she may appreciate the honesty
SurvivorGracie: and he'd still get her damn vote
SurvivorGracie: Tay and Tenz are trolling for votes basically
JenneUCSC: they'll lose hers if they toy with her
SurvivorGracie: yep
SurvivorGracie: I asked tenz about helping ellie with the challenge
JenneUCSC: i was going to
JenneUCSC: lol
SurvivorGracie: he said he told her he would if he could
SurvivorGracie: but he never actually did
JenneUCSC: well i knew he didnt help her per se
JenneUCSC: i just dont think he tried to win
JenneUCSC: i expected that
JenneUCSC: he would rather ellie in the f4 with him then taylor
SurvivorGracie: yeah
JenneUCSC: cause he's closer to her and knows she'd stick by him over us
SurvivorGracie: lol .. especially at this point she would
SurvivorGracie: well, cutie ... my bedtime
SurvivorGracie: keep 'em in line
JenneUCSC: goodnight! quite the day!
SurvivorGracie: definitely
SurvivorGracie: post this for me?
JenneUCSC: shore!
JenneUCSC: *hugs*
SurvivorGracie: *hugs*
SurvivorGracie signed off at 8:18:04 PM.

[Jenne]

LucasHorowitz: yay Jenne!
JenneUCSC: :-)hi
LucasHorowitz: ellie's working me hard to vote for gracie
JenneUCSC: i am sure
JenneUCSC: she gave up on me i think. she asked me if i was voting for her, i said yes
JenneUCSC: she proceeded to make me feel like a huge bitch
JenneUCSC: i cried
LucasHorowitz: jenne's too honest :-(
JenneUCSC: well i hear she wanted to vote for me if i wasnt immune
LucasHorowitz: you don't lie well!
LucasHorowitz: *gasp*
JenneUCSC: its not that i dont lie well, i just dont lie period
JenneUCSC: well, maybe a lil
JenneUCSC: ;-)
LucasHorowitz: I told her time and time again
LucasHorowitz: if she wasn't immune
LucasHorowitz: her best shot was against taylor since he had no enemies
JenneUCSC: she wanted to go after gracie and me
LucasHorowitz: still is
JenneUCSC: i won this for the four of us
JenneUCSC: me winning, was winning for all four of us
JenneUCSC: she wont understand that
JenneUCSC: but i just met her
LucasHorowitz: I know
JenneUCSC: you and taylor have been my friends for two years
JenneUCSC: and beth for like a yr now
LucasHorowitz: I'm playing it all torn and stuff
LucasHorowitz: won't say yes, won't say no
JenneUCSC: why not just tell her?
JenneUCSC: whats the point of toying with her at this point?
LucasHorowitz: because I suck
LucasHorowitz: :-(
JenneUCSC: awww
JenneUCSC: i know its hard being honest
JenneUCSC: cause they shit all over you
JenneUCSC: trust me, after kyle and ellie i learned!
JenneUCSC: i got sick of ellie making me feel bad though
LucasHorowitz: i want one friend on the jury
JenneUCSC: and i stood up for myself with her
LucasHorowitz: thats all
JenneUCSC: and we finally agreed not to talk about the game anymore
JenneUCSC: i dont think anyone has any right to make me feel bad for my decisions in this game. and after crying all week long, i was over it
JenneUCSC: as soon as i told her to back off and that she wasnt being fair, she like snapped out of it
JenneUCSC: which made me feel like she was just trying to make me feel bad for strategy
JenneUCSC: and not cause she actually was hurt
JenneUCSC: toying with her and then voting her out isnt gonna gain you her vote . you know that
LucasHorowitz: i know
JenneUCSC: she basically already told me i dont have her vote
JenneUCSC: lol
JenneUCSC: you wanted her in the f4 huh?
LucasHorowitz: no
LucasHorowitz: I sucked up to her
LucasHorowitz: and said i did
LucasHorowitz: just in case
JenneUCSC: aww that just made me laugh
JenneUCSC: thank you
JenneUCSC: i did too
JenneUCSC: well i may not have made any lasting friendships in this game, but i didnt lose any long standing friendships either. all and all, an ok job!
JenneUCSC: :-P
LucasHorowitz: gotta finsih my oscars!
LucasHorowitz: ttyl
LucasHorowitz signed off at 8:23:43 PM.