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Post by Kyle on Feb 24, 2005 19:52:46 GMT -5
Kdadams76: hello
Kdadams76: how are you?
SurvivorGracie:
SurvivorGracie: survivor night!
Kdadams76: yahoo!
Kdadams76: how was your day? better than yesterday?
SurvivorGracie: much!
SurvivorGracie:
SurvivorGracie: how was yours?
Kdadams76: it was pretty good...i did absolutely no work at work and wrote all day long
Kdadams76: LOL
SurvivorGracie: yay
SurvivorGracie: what are you writing?
Kdadams76: a play for the 4th of July
SurvivorGracie: wow
SurvivorGracie: that's pretty darn impresive
Kdadams76: set in the colonial times
SurvivorGracie: impressive*
Kdadams76: i love writing...get lost in a make believe world
SurvivorGracie: that's so cool!
SurvivorGracie: will the play be performed?
Kdadams76: yes hopefully if i get it finished in time!
SurvivorGracie: how cool is that!
SurvivorGracie: *grin* I want a signed copy
Kdadams76: LOL
Kdadams76: ok
Kdadams76: i'll send you one
SurvivorGracie: *cheers*
Kdadams76: i'm gone tonight
SurvivorGracie: .. I know
SurvivorGracie: I'm pulling my hair out trying to figure out how to say that
Kdadams76: and you are gonna vote me too?
SurvivorGracie: I'm thinking of taking a self-vote
SurvivorGracie: I like everyone and don't want to vote anyone out
SurvivorGracie: I never knew it was this hard
Kdadams76: i can't believe either one of you
SurvivorGracie: I know
Kdadams76: you promised me gracie
Kdadams76: choose Lucas over me?
SurvivorGracie: I wish I had words
SurvivorGracie: and I'm sorry .. words are all failing me
Kdadams76: i don't even want to hear them
SurvivorGracie: I know
SurvivorGracie: this isn't a vote against you though
SurvivorGracie: it really isn't
Kdadams76: whatever
SurvivorGracie: and I know you don't understand that.
SurvivorGracie: and I know I can't even begin to explain that
SurvivorGracie: and I'm sure you totally hate me now
Kdadams76: just stop
SurvivorGracie: okay
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Post by Kyle on Feb 24, 2005 19:57:56 GMT -5
Kdadams76: hey there
Kdadams76: yep
JenneUCSC: hi honey!
Kdadams76: how are you?
JenneUCSC: your window was hiding! just saw yah
JenneUCSC: i'm ok. not looking forward to this TC
Kdadams76: do we ever??
JenneUCSC: no!
JenneUCSC: but this is the worst yet
Kdadams76: does he know?
JenneUCSC: no
JenneUCSC: :-( he doesnt
Kdadams76: i'm sure he has to have some idea right?
Kdadams76: well i guess i know who the floating votes will be for
Kdadams76: sigh
JenneUCSC: ellie and lucas are voting for you
Kdadams76: shocker
Kdadams76: can you let me in on why i've been the minority target every tc since the merge?
Kdadams76: have i done something?
JenneUCSC: lol, no you havnt. i dont know why they chose you
Kdadams76: every single one except for steves
Kdadams76: and ryans but still
Kdadams76: its unsettling
Kdadams76: and i've actually made the intiative to get to know everyone
JenneUCSC: well you know lucas's issues. i talked to you botu that last night. and ellie isnt your biggest fan either. so i think that may be the route of it
Kdadams76: i know she doesn't like me...i just wonder why.
Kdadams76: i've always tried to talk to her and get to know her....she has NEVER messaged me
JenneUCSC: comments like the teen beat one i think did it
JenneUCSC: but it went further back
JenneUCSC: she never talked to me about it , i just found out
Kdadams76: oh that was all in fun
Kdadams76: and she laughed it off....but i've never made any other comment like that before
JenneUCSC: i think she felt you felt superior and put on airs. the age-difference thing. i dont think you did it purposefully. more how she took it
Kdadams76: yeah...not something i can worry about though
JenneUCSC: i dont thinnk its your fault
JenneUCSC: i think it was her own issue with the age thing
JenneUCSC: nope
Kdadams76: well....just as long as they are the only 2 votes i get tonight!
JenneUCSC: will you be here in 1/2 hr?
JenneUCSC: i need to get work stuff done, then ill have 1/2 to talk before i leave for class
Kdadams76: i'll be watching survivor then
JenneUCSC: blegh!
Kdadams76: but those are the only 2 votes i'm getting right?
JenneUCSC: we need to talk
Kdadams76: Jenne
Kdadams76: what are you trying to tell me
JenneUCSC: that i have to make a very hard decision tonight. one i dont want to make.
JenneUCSC: i talked to ellie for a long time last night
JenneUCSC: and lucas too
Kdadams76: and you're going to vote for me
JenneUCSC: and they broke me
JenneUCSC: i am kyle
Kdadams76: jenne i can't belive this
Kdadams76: i cannot believe this
Kdadams76: you broke our alliance
JenneUCSC: i needed you to know
Kdadams76: you broke it like you PROMISED you wouldn't
JenneUCSC: and you can do what you want with that. i was planning on voting for lucas this whole time
JenneUCSC: but i just dont feel i can do it
Kdadams76: why did you let him change you
JenneUCSC: and i dont want to vote for you
Kdadams76: why?
JenneUCSC: i want to self-vote to be honest
Kdadams76: i can't belive you
JenneUCSC: but i had to make a decision.
Kdadams76: i can't
Kdadams76: did taylor vote me too?
JenneUCSC: no he didnt
Kdadams76: i can't believe you jenne
JenneUCSC: i'm not proud of myself right now
Kdadams76: i can't believe you
JenneUCSC: cause i care about you more than you probally realize
JenneUCSC: thats why i'm telling you this now
Kdadams76: what has lucas got that you have to keep him over me?
JenneUCSC: cause i cant be there tonight
JenneUCSC: and you deserve to hear it from me
JenneUCSC: because i am your friend. and i care about you. and i hate that im doing this
Kdadams76: obviously not
Kdadams76: you picked lucas
Kdadams76: LUCAS of all people
Kdadams76: i should have known from the start
JenneUCSC: i hope you will understand why i am doing this once this is all over
JenneUCSC: i know you cant now
Kdadams76: no i don't
Kdadams76: and i won't
Kdadams76: what made you change?
Kdadams76: just how good with words is he?
JenneUCSC: they had me in tears. both of them
Kdadams76: because they were playing a game that you had already won
Kdadams76: and you let them beat you
JenneUCSC: how had i won?
JenneUCSC: im the biggest loser here
JenneUCSC: i cared about too many people
JenneUCSC: and set myself up to be an emotional sobby snot nosed mess
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Post by Kyle on Feb 24, 2005 19:58:24 GMT -5
Kdadams76: i knew you were going to cave last night
Kdadams76: i knew it
JenneUCSC: i wasnt goin to at that point
JenneUCSC: maybe you knew better than i did
Kdadams76: but you did
Kdadams76: and i get to be sacrificed because of it
JenneUCSC: you have the allstar
Kdadams76: no i don't
JenneUCSC: i'm not playing this game ever again
Kdadams76: it's top 5
JenneUCSC: its not soemthing i want to put myself thru again
JenneUCSC: you meet great people, you care about them, then you screw or get screwed
Kdadams76: why don't you stick to you guns and keep your 4 alliance
JenneUCSC: its sux
Kdadams76: i knew i should't have trusted you
Kdadams76: i knew it
JenneUCSC: kyle i understand why you are hurt
JenneUCSC: adn that you want me to hurt right now too
JenneUCSC: trust me i hurt so bad
JenneUCSC: cause i am crying right now
JenneUCSC: whether you trust that or not
Kdadams76: but Lucas over me
Kdadams76: WHY?
JenneUCSC: when we meet when this game is over, if you still want to be my friend. i have a lot to tell you
Kdadams76: i want to know now
Kdadams76: the least you can do is show me that decency
JenneUCSC: i cant right now. i know you dont undertand. but i just cant .
Kdadams76: its not like i'm out of the game yet
Kdadams76: what Lucas is your boyfriend or something?
Kdadams76: you've known him as long as you've known taylor?
JenneUCSC: lucas and jamie are together. you know that
Kdadams76: so what does that have to do with me?
JenneUCSC: i have always been sincere with you. i have loved playing this game with you.
JenneUCSC: nothing was ever fake or a lie
JenneUCSC: this is a decision i am making in a game
JenneUCSC: and has nothing to do with how i feel about you
JenneUCSC: i hope you can let yourself feel that
JenneUCSC: because i really mean it
JenneUCSC: i hope this isnt the end of us
Kdadams76: you need to just tell me how in the world Lucas of all people won you over me
Kdadams76: you owe me that
Kdadams76: i don't need to wait 10months to read it for myself
JenneUCSC: i care about you both. and knew at some point i would have to choose between you. i put it off as long as possible. i couldnt bare to do it to either of you. but here i am. hurting someone i care about
JenneUCSC: its a game. emotions are involved. but its a game. and this is the choice i am making.
Kdadams76: and beating around the bush
JenneUCSC: taylor will be pissed at me when he gets back
Kdadams76: yeah he will
Kdadams76: so where does taylor fit into all this?
JenneUCSC: what do you mean?
Kdadams76: you gonna vote lucas out the next time around and keep taylor all the way to the finals?
Kdadams76: because you know...you're God's best friend
JenneUCSC: i dont know if i will be in a position to be making the choices at that point
Kdadams76: whatever
Kdadams76: you're in the position now
Kdadams76: so why will it be any different
Kdadams76: i just want to know why
Kdadams76: Lucas should've gone when we voted Tony and I had all the power to do it...but i saved him for his sake...and mostly yours
Kdadams76: did you know that?
JenneUCSC: no
Kdadams76: yep
Kdadams76: me and taylor discussed and we kept him because of you
JenneUCSC: wow
Kdadams76: yes wow
JenneUCSC: i really had no idea
Kdadams76: i've put up with a lot of crap from lucas in thsi game
Kdadams76: i've had been forced to smile and shake hands with him and go with the flow
Kdadams76: and now look
Kdadams76: here's my payment
JenneUCSC: kyle what did you expect? this is a game where people get voted off. i always expect to go. what did you think was gonna happen?
JenneUCSC: you were gonna vote me off eventually
Kdadams76: honestly i wasn't
JenneUCSC: this was always gonna happen
Kdadams76: i was hoping me and you and taylor would be final 3
JenneUCSC: and then what?
JenneUCSC: someone would go
Kdadams76: if we were final 3 and you voted me off...i would expect it
Kdadams76: and it wouldn't hurt
Kdadams76: but this....this is ridiculous
Kdadams76: you are choosing lucas over me
JenneUCSC: there are 18 people in this game
JenneUCSC: and 17 of them wont be happy with how the game goes
Kdadams76: but you most definitely
Kdadams76: will
Kdadams76: go ahead make your game changing choices
JenneUCSC: i dont like myselfr
JenneUCSC: im not proud of myself
Kdadams76: thanks for stringing me along for 44
Kdadams76: days
JenneUCSC: i wish you wouldnt take it like that
JenneUCSC: but i understand your feelings
JenneUCSC: i really do
JenneUCSC: you are right to feel the way you do
JenneUCSC: i suck
JenneUCSC: and i know i do
Kdadams76: if it was anyone but lucas i'd be ok
Kdadams76: but you are choosing lucas over me
Kdadams76: lucas
Kdadams76: and ellie
Kdadams76: so much for our strong alliance
Kdadams76: i'm kicking myself for not sticking with ryan and rami
JenneUCSC: you would have gone a long time ago if you had
Kdadams76: i want to know right now why lucas over me?
JenneUCSC: it was almost you when jamie went. everyone was pissed you told ryan about the alliance. but we liked you so much. and honored the bond we had formed with you. so you didnt go, jamie did. and lucas was left int he dark about it
Kdadams76: i DID NOT tell ryan about our alliance
Kdadams76: how many different ways can i say that
Kdadams76: he figured it out
JenneUCSC: ok, well thats what we thought at the time
JenneUCSC: whether it was true or not. we had faith in you. and trusted you
Kdadams76: he knew i was close with taylor...he knew i kept standing up for lucas...and he knew you and gracie were the only girls i talked to
JenneUCSC: and we stood behind you on that
Kdadams76: so you can't stand behind me anymore and you are going to go with lucas
Kdadams76: i never actually turned on anyone in our alliance
Kdadams76: Lucas DID
JenneUCSC: i dont know what else i can say to you. i cant make this better
Kdadams76: absolutely nothing
Kdadams76: you've totally slapped me in the face
Kdadams76: and all this because Taylor isn't here
JenneUCSC: i wish taylor was here actually. iw as gonna call him and let him know
JenneUCSC: i dont want to be deceptive
JenneUCSC: its why i am telling you this
Kdadams76: and its why you've strung me along all this time?
Kdadams76: nothing's gonna change
Kdadams76: i'm done
Kdadams76: do what you want
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