Lucas
Lucas
The Commander
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Post by Lucas on Feb 11, 2005 0:19:01 GMT -5
It's over.
What's that mean?
That it's over.
I wish I could elaborate but I really don't know much more then that.
It's like Kurt Cobain once said--
I hate myself and I want to die.
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Lucas
Lucas
The Commander
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Post by Lucas on Feb 11, 2005 2:49:44 GMT -5
The thing that pisses me off is the timeline.
They were set on Kyle. What happened is second thoughts and that's a part of this game. To me they screwed over Jamie for an utterly selfish reason. She didn't want to vote Kelley. She wanted to stick to the plan.
It's an ego thing. And I recognize that.
But it really f**king sucks that when it's someone who's after me or Gracie we do something about it. But because it's Jamie she has to stick a thumb up her ass and wait her turn like a f**king kindergartener.
And you know what I really truly hate? What I really despise?
Being told that she was distracting me. They're my friends and they won't like this but they started this f**king mess. Not her. Honest to god. I almost feel like I don't want to go to the end with them now. I'd rather take a shotgun and go into a cornfield and blow my f**king brains out.
They got their way though and there isn't a god d**n thing I can do about it. I don't even want them to talk to me. I want them to leave me the f**k alone. As far as this game is concerned I'm through with them. Just give me my duty for the day. I'll shut my yap. Do what they want. I don't give a shit. They don't want my input. They never saw my side. And I was fair. I was objective. I saw both motherf**king god d**ned sides!
This is no reflection on them as people outside the game who I cherish and always will. But in this moment I am consumed with rage. So when this airs I hope they remember the state of mind I was in when I said it.
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