LucasHorowitz: taylor will take you, guarenteed
LucasHorowitz: I flip flop because its just a yucky choice to have to make
JenneUCSC: cause i know im not too strong in challenges. i doubt i'll win the final one. i want to be with people who i think will take me
JenneUCSC: is that wrong?
LucasHorowitz: Beth...I think will take me if I'm there
LucasHorowitz: Ellie is kinda a crapshoot
LucasHorowitz: she hasn't got our friendships so she's gonna choose whoever she can beat I think
LucasHorowitz: Beth would take you over Taylor
JenneUCSC: which means you
LucasHorowitz: no idea who Taylor would if its me him and Beth
LucasHorowitz: for the longest time I thought we'd just go to final four and do a tie and let the rock decide the first of us to go :-\
JenneUCSC: i think i blocked it
JenneUCSC: all i thought bout was us 4 at the end
LucasHorowitz: I know
JenneUCSC: and refused to let myself think past it
LucasHorowitz: I'll respect any choices you make at final four
LucasHorowitz: but i want all four of us to be there
JenneUCSC: *sighs* i do too. but i would a lot more if i knew you would take me! :-P
LucasHorowitz: I just don't know what I want to do. I ow you all and you all deserve to be there.
LucasHorowitz: if the jury is pissed then i think I have a shot of winning
JenneUCSC: i think the girls are gonna hate me
LucasHorowitz: but if its objective and fair I think I am toast
JenneUCSC: you want to win as much as i do huh?
LucasHorowitz: I do
LucasHorowitz: but not at all costs
JenneUCSC: i feel like i already paid the ultimate cost in this game
LucasHorowitz: I've often talked about the changes
JenneUCSC: my soul left me or something
LucasHorowitz: most haven't bothered me
LucasHorowitz: but there was a brief moment where you were ruthless and vengeful
LucasHorowitz: and I didn't like that aspect
JenneUCSC: i said in my first confessional in this game that the biggest challenge for me in this game was gonna be the battle with myself
JenneUCSC: to be honest, i didnt like that part of me either
JenneUCSC: its gross
LucasHorowitz: its not you
JenneUCSC: it really isnt
JenneUCSC: why i dont want to come back for an allstar
JenneUCSC: dont like what this game does to people, to me. it was good i went so early in tonga
JenneUCSC: kept me pure
LucasHorowitz: even for chris?
JenneUCSC: i know i played this game for chris
JenneUCSC: but frankly, i wouldnt play again, not for him, not for me, not for anyone
JenneUCSC: why i want to win so badly. go out with a bang! then never do it again!
JenneUCSC: i'm such a perfectionists
LucasHorowitz: I think you've had your fun
LucasHorowitz: I'm not crazy about doing it again either
LucasHorowitz: but thats more because the live stuff just kills me
JenneUCSC: i had my fun when i was voting off people i didnt know or like so much. but this end stuff is brutal
JenneUCSC: i dont know how people can play these all the time
JenneUCSC: annette played in over 40
JenneUCSC: i could never do that!
LucasHorowitz: I don't get too emotionally attached to making the decisions...but that was easy so far for me
LucasHorowitz: will be different at f4
JenneUCSC: so far it has been easy. but i got attached to ellie and kyle
JenneUCSC: so this f6 for me is where it got rough
LucasHorowitz: I lost all fondness for kyle long ago
LucasHorowitz: I think he's the BEST f2 opponent
LucasHorowitz: he's getting votes, people are starting to dislike me, he gaves poor answers at tc
LucasHorowitz: dislike him, i mean
LucasHorowitz: I don't think he can win at all
JenneUCSC: no , he cant
JenneUCSC: i was worried taylor wanted to face him in f2
LucasHorowitz: I'm still voting him tomorrow though :-P
JenneUCSC: i wish i could be there
LucasHorowitz: oh thats right
JenneUCSC: i feel like a coward, voting a friend out
JenneUCSC: and not even being there
LucasHorowitz: just gonna be the four of us
LucasHorowitz: I haven't seen him much the last few days
LucasHorowitz: I'm wondering if he knows
JenneUCSC: 4? cause tay is gone?
JenneUCSC: he doesnt know
JenneUCSC: cause we told him we were voting for you
JenneUCSC: :-(
LucasHorowitz: yes...taylor said he was going to vote ahead of time
LucasHorowitz: unless something changed
JenneUCSC: he is gone till sunday he said
JenneUCSC: he is scared he will be targeted when he is gone for some reason
JenneUCSC: i was like "by who?"
LucasHorowitz: he's gpt paranoia
LucasHorowitz: he was freaked out by one vote from ryan
JenneUCSC: oll
LucasHorowitz: and it was totally unjustified
LucasHorowitz: he got it cause he couldn't vote me
LucasHorowitz: no one gives a damn about taylor. he's been in the middle/utr
LucasHorowitz: (which cuts both ways in f2)
LucasHorowitz: sides, we're not letting ellie win again
JenneUCSC: oh hells no
JenneUCSC: she kicked our asses though
JenneUCSC: kyle thought it was rigged
JenneUCSC: i was like "how would that be possible?"
JenneUCSC: she got the answers in less than a second!
LucasHorowitz: I type with two fingers. that slowed me down
JenneUCSC: i went as fast as i could!
JenneUCSC: i knew most of em but she alway sbeat me!
LucasHorowitz: i knew all but two
JenneUCSC: thats better than me
JenneUCSC: i got one i didnt know
JenneUCSC: celine dion, i just googled the fasted
LucasHorowitz: I IMed Beth her answers that she got
LucasHorowitz: I knew the answer but had no idea how to spell it
JenneUCSC: that was the hard part!
JenneUCSC: i still contest the pamela one though
JenneUCSC: cause her and kid rock broke up a long time ago
LucasHorowitz: she's a skank. *giggle*
JenneUCSC: she is with someone else now
LucasHorowitz: well yes and no
JenneUCSC: but even so she got back with tommy after kid rock
LucasHorowitz: its debateable
JenneUCSC: true
LucasHorowitz: she's a strumpet :-)
JenneUCSC: nothing wrong with that!
LucasHorowitz: nope!
JenneUCSC: *sighs* i am really glad we talked
JenneUCSC: you made me feel better bout all this crud
LucasHorowitz: *BIG HUGS*
JenneUCSC: *GINORMOUS HUGS*
JenneUCSC: i felt like i lost mikey along the way with this lucas guy
JenneUCSC: tonight is the first time i have felt mikey in a long time
JenneUCSC: oh no, tears are coming again
LucasHorowitz: I was kind of drifting without Jamie
JenneUCSC: i noticed
LucasHorowitz: it messed me up more then I thought it would
JenneUCSC: i know
JenneUCSC: i could feelit
JenneUCSC: i felt you were far away after that
JenneUCSC: i felt like i had let you down
JenneUCSC: and you were disapointed in me
JenneUCSC: but i think thats cause i felt like i had
JenneUCSC: not that you thought that
LucasHorowitz: you said one thing that did upset me
LucasHorowitz: actually it wasn't that you said it
LucasHorowitz: it was the timing
LucasHorowitz: when the first thing you said to me after she was gone about getting kelley
JenneUCSC: im surprised it was just one thing
JenneUCSC: that was insensitive of me. to be honest i had no idea what to say to you at that point
JenneUCSC: i was ashamed of myself
LucasHorowitz: that was the one that bugged me the most
JenneUCSC: i dont remember what i said
LucasHorowitz: something like "will you help me get kelley now? :-)"
LucasHorowitz: but it was the timing
JenneUCSC: man, im a real bitch
LucasHorowitz: not that you said it at all
JenneUCSC: jamie would have torn everyone to shreds in this game. she was a tough cookie. i feared her
JenneUCSC: i told ellie that actually when we voted her off
LucasHorowitz: ellie is still here silly!
LucasHorowitz: :-)
JenneUCSC: when we voted jamie off
LucasHorowitz: oh...
LucasHorowitz: gotcha
JenneUCSC: lol
LucasHorowitz: tomorrow will be good therapy
LucasHorowitz: I promised her kyle will not win
LucasHorowitz: and I can finally deliver
JenneUCSC: she thinks taylor is gonna win
LucasHorowitz: (the night she was booted)
LucasHorowitz: ellie? jamie?
JenneUCSC: ellie said that to me
LucasHorowitz: its the utr/in the middle thing
LucasHorowitz: its a sword that cuts both ways
JenneUCSC: taylor has done a good job out here. i've been proud of him
LucasHorowitz: me too
JenneUCSC: alright, im gonna sign off. need to do math hw and get to bed. im drained
LucasHorowitz: *hugs*
JenneUCSC: *hugs* thank you mikey
JenneUCSC: i needed this more than you know
JenneUCSC: *more hugs*
LucasHorowitz: thats what i'm here for
JenneUCSC: :-)
JenneUCSC signed off at 3:23:18 AM.
